Yes thats right folks....looks like I'm a mutant. LOL
Had my Endocrinologist appointment today. I wasn't to happy about it since I
really just wanted to schedule my growth hormone stimulation test and be done,
but whatever. The fellow they insist I see has NO freakin' idea what to do with
me. Today she even said so....great, thanks!
When the attending physician came in, I at least felt a little better. He was
able to answer my questions where I was satisfied with the answers. He said from
the crazy wonky hormones I have going on, its more than likely a genetic
mutation of my pituitary genes. That specific mutation causes certain hormones
to be out of sync....growth hormone being one. He poked at my flab and poked at
my neck and said that I just "looked like I was growth hormone deficient" based
on where my fat deposits are located. One, specifically on my neck....as he
poked it, he says to the fellow "see this fat? Thats not supposed to be there".
I'm like, great thanks again!
At any rate, they drew only one lab today , my IGF-1 (aka growth hormone) and
depending on the results is how we'll proceed. If its low for sure they're
giving my daily GH injections forever. If its low normal they're doing the stim
test. If its totally awesome well, then FML.
On the plus side, the IGF-1 levels should be back by next week sometime so
I'll at least know when and what the next move is going to be!!
Friday, March 29, 2013
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Ok, ok....I get it.
I heard this Rascal Flatts song today and it really spoke to me as to how I've turned into a different person over the last couple years.
In some respects, I'm glad to have this lesson. Obviously , I'd prefer to just have a baby :) but if whoever is out there is trying to teach me something in the process along the way...so be it.
I just would like to send a celestial "shout out" to the big being upstairs. "I HEAR YOU....I GET IT!!!!" .... now send little C or V/C/G down to his or her mommy :)
In some respects, I'm glad to have this lesson. Obviously , I'd prefer to just have a baby :) but if whoever is out there is trying to teach me something in the process along the way...so be it.
I just would like to send a celestial "shout out" to the big being upstairs. "I HEAR YOU....I GET IT!!!!" .... now send little C or V/C/G down to his or her mommy :)
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
I POAS......LOL
Well we're rounding out month 2 of our break and I bought some pee sticks.
Not that I expected to see anything (especially considering all the OPKs are coming back negative) but well....thats how people wound up on "I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant" right? Might as well!!
Well of course, BFN but now at least I feel better about taking my progesterone. Whenever I get around to taking it...I'm sure its not coming on its own since its been 8 weeks since it came last time after my IVF. I dont know what, if any, labs my Endocrinologist is going to want to draw next week so its probably best for me to wait until after I see her.
I'm in no hurry for AF :)
Not that I expected to see anything (especially considering all the OPKs are coming back negative) but well....thats how people wound up on "I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant" right? Might as well!!
Well of course, BFN but now at least I feel better about taking my progesterone. Whenever I get around to taking it...I'm sure its not coming on its own since its been 8 weeks since it came last time after my IVF. I dont know what, if any, labs my Endocrinologist is going to want to draw next week so its probably best for me to wait until after I see her.
I'm in no hurry for AF :)
Friday, March 15, 2013
A solution to my shower problem!!!
Today guess what came in the mail??? A BRIDAL shower invitation ....same date, same time.
Know what I did???? Screamed....
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!
To which my husband gave me a funny look.
Woot woot!!!! I'm an awful liar so I'm pretty sure I'd have just gone to the baby shower and snuck away during random times to cry in the bathroom so I'm really glad that I have a real and valid and honest excuse for RSVPing No to that baby shower.....that was during NIAW. Ummm, yeah think I forgot to mention that in my last post, LOL :)
Anywho....there isn't much to report since my consults are done and I'm just sitting around like a bump on a log. I'm sick this week so thats made my week drag by pretty slow...date night last week was really fun :) Here's me eating a mushroom (I haaaaaaaaaaaaaaate mushrooms)
Oh and in other news...I finally took my wedding dress back from my parents house. Maybe I should get it cleaned it looked really bad, LOL omg. I'm still holding out that it will someday soon become my child(ren)'s Christening gowns so hopefully its not yellow by then, gah!!! I had Jim take my picture in the dress....yes I tried it on. Is that weird? Jim says yes , but I say ehhhh I kinda want to try it on again, LOL
Don't let the picture fool you.....it doesn't fit!! The zipper only goes about half way up but its better that none of the way up, am I right or am I right?!
Ok well thats about it. Hopefully I come up with something fun and creative to blog about between now and the 29th (my Endocrinologist appointment). If not...this blog may turn into what most people's Facebook statuses look like "I'm at the salon" "I'm doing laundry" or..." I'm tired" . LOL
For my sake and yours, lets hope it doesn't come down to that!
Know what I did???? Screamed....
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!
To which my husband gave me a funny look.
Woot woot!!!! I'm an awful liar so I'm pretty sure I'd have just gone to the baby shower and snuck away during random times to cry in the bathroom so I'm really glad that I have a real and valid and honest excuse for RSVPing No to that baby shower.....that was during NIAW. Ummm, yeah think I forgot to mention that in my last post, LOL :)
Anywho....there isn't much to report since my consults are done and I'm just sitting around like a bump on a log. I'm sick this week so thats made my week drag by pretty slow...date night last week was really fun :) Here's me eating a mushroom (I haaaaaaaaaaaaaaate mushrooms)
Ok well thats about it. Hopefully I come up with something fun and creative to blog about between now and the 29th (my Endocrinologist appointment). If not...this blog may turn into what most people's Facebook statuses look like "I'm at the salon" "I'm doing laundry" or..." I'm tired" . LOL
For my sake and yours, lets hope it doesn't come down to that!
Friday, March 8, 2013
I should probably update my ticker...
Today is 3 weeks until my Endocrinologist appointment.
I'd like to say she will schedule my stim test for next month and either A) Find out I'm GH deficient and start me on a few months of injects before stims hopefully in August/September... OR ...B) Find out I'm not deficient and pursue an alternate protocol in July. However, knowing what I went through last year with the Endocrinologist I have this feeling that this is going to be a process.
Either way, my ticker is set to start stims on July 15th , the day after my BIL's wedding. In either situation I dont think I'll be ready by the 15th.
In other news, I got an invitation to a baby shower today. Its for Jim's friend's wife....apparently Jim gave his friend the heads up that we're having some trouble and I'm uncomfortable around babies and pregnant women. Great. So ...if I don't go and fake an excuse they'll say "Awww poor Kate". If I do go, I'm going to have to go, need I say more? Ugh. I have until April 11th to RSVP so I think I'm going to just see what mood I'm in on April 10th :)
I'd like to say she will schedule my stim test for next month and either A) Find out I'm GH deficient and start me on a few months of injects before stims hopefully in August/September... OR ...B) Find out I'm not deficient and pursue an alternate protocol in July. However, knowing what I went through last year with the Endocrinologist I have this feeling that this is going to be a process.
Either way, my ticker is set to start stims on July 15th , the day after my BIL's wedding. In either situation I dont think I'll be ready by the 15th.
In other news, I got an invitation to a baby shower today. Its for Jim's friend's wife....apparently Jim gave his friend the heads up that we're having some trouble and I'm uncomfortable around babies and pregnant women. Great. So ...if I don't go and fake an excuse they'll say "Awww poor Kate". If I do go, I'm going to have to go, need I say more? Ugh. I have until April 11th to RSVP so I think I'm going to just see what mood I'm in on April 10th :)
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Dude, Where's My Infant?
Tomorrow is the 1 Year anniversary of the first time I thought I'd have an infant in my arms by now.
Yes indeed that first Clomid pill was swallowed and I just knew a beautiful follicle would ovulate an egg that held the genetic makeup of my baby in it. March of 2013 would be my baby's 3 month birthday and I'd be so excited!!!
Obviously that didn't happen but I hoped that maybe I'd have a 2 month old??? Ok....a newborn???? Ok....not a 3 month old but DUE in 3 months?? Ok....due in 5 months??? Ok...newly pregnant and super excited???? OMG seriously???
Yes that is right Ghost of Kate's Past.....we're praying and praying and praying that next year this time we're even pregnant. Sorry to burst your bubble.
Somedays I wish I could have an ounce of the naivety from March 2012 back...maybe the days ahead would be a little easier to trudge through?
Yes indeed that first Clomid pill was swallowed and I just knew a beautiful follicle would ovulate an egg that held the genetic makeup of my baby in it. March of 2013 would be my baby's 3 month birthday and I'd be so excited!!!
Obviously that didn't happen but I hoped that maybe I'd have a 2 month old??? Ok....a newborn???? Ok....not a 3 month old but DUE in 3 months?? Ok....due in 5 months??? Ok...newly pregnant and super excited???? OMG seriously???
Yes that is right Ghost of Kate's Past.....we're praying and praying and praying that next year this time we're even pregnant. Sorry to burst your bubble.
Somedays I wish I could have an ounce of the naivety from March 2012 back...maybe the days ahead would be a little easier to trudge through?
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
CCRM Consult....finally!!
I rescheduled a few times...then they rescheduled a few times....yesterday, I finally
got Dr. Surrey on the phone.
Don't get me wrong, he was super nice and seemed very knowledgeable. I guess I just thought I'd hear a choir of angels sounding after I hung up with anyone at CCRM, LOL ...kidding of course,
He agrees with my current RE that quality is my issue, which others have agreed also. He thinks its a good idea to cycle in another location to see if my embryos just don't want to grow in the current RE's lab. If we cycle at CCRM, or just anywhere else, and our embryos still refuse to grow then obviously its all an issue with me and my eggs. Basically, he recommended karyotyping, a sperm frag test, and CCS with our embryos (provided we'd get embryos to grow to blast....thats a big if).
Having him say that I should cycle in another place to see if the lab is partially to blame....that makes me feel better about cycling elsewhere. I'm comfortable with my choice to give a local RE a try and see what he can do. If next year this time I'm still sitting here banging my head against the wall then I guess it'll be a choice of DE or going to CCRM.
At least I talked to them and feel better now that my 2nd opinion project is complete :)
In other news...the new job is going well! I'm in my third week so far and today I'm working from home due to some pending snow. I'm psyched that I don't have to trudge out in a blizzard if one should happen to fall!!
This weekend is our monthly Resolve meeting. After that, Jim and I are spending the night downtown thanks to a free night stay at the Blackstone from my parents for Xmas. We're also going to dinner at the Russian Tea Room thanks to my parents Xmas gift!! I'm so excited!! We need a night away together but really can't afford one right now so that was the perfect gift!! :)
Anywho thats all for now....just a quick little update!!
Don't get me wrong, he was super nice and seemed very knowledgeable. I guess I just thought I'd hear a choir of angels sounding after I hung up with anyone at CCRM, LOL ...kidding of course,
He agrees with my current RE that quality is my issue, which others have agreed also. He thinks its a good idea to cycle in another location to see if my embryos just don't want to grow in the current RE's lab. If we cycle at CCRM, or just anywhere else, and our embryos still refuse to grow then obviously its all an issue with me and my eggs. Basically, he recommended karyotyping, a sperm frag test, and CCS with our embryos (provided we'd get embryos to grow to blast....thats a big if).
Having him say that I should cycle in another place to see if the lab is partially to blame....that makes me feel better about cycling elsewhere. I'm comfortable with my choice to give a local RE a try and see what he can do. If next year this time I'm still sitting here banging my head against the wall then I guess it'll be a choice of DE or going to CCRM.
At least I talked to them and feel better now that my 2nd opinion project is complete :)
In other news...the new job is going well! I'm in my third week so far and today I'm working from home due to some pending snow. I'm psyched that I don't have to trudge out in a blizzard if one should happen to fall!!
This weekend is our monthly Resolve meeting. After that, Jim and I are spending the night downtown thanks to a free night stay at the Blackstone from my parents for Xmas. We're also going to dinner at the Russian Tea Room thanks to my parents Xmas gift!! I'm so excited!! We need a night away together but really can't afford one right now so that was the perfect gift!! :)
Anywho thats all for now....just a quick little update!!
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