Here is the link to "Jack's Birth Story", the last post in my pregnancy blog.
http://wefinallyfoundyou.blogspot.com/2013/12/jacks-birth-story.html
Monday, December 30, 2013
Sunday, November 3, 2013
Another blog...
Having seen many IF blogs turn into pregnancy blogs, and feeling happy for them but so sad for myself.... I've decided to branch out into this secondary blog about the pregnancy of Baby Payne.
We searched so long to find him/her that while I'm so excited to be sharing the good news and updates, I know there is still a world of people out there that will be saddened and I don't want my happiness to cause someone else sadness.
The only thing I could think of to make the transition from IF blog to pregnancy blog was to split them into two separate blogs. This way, those who aren't in the best of places don't have to follow both, unless they want to.
If you'd like to follow along with the secondary blog.... here is the link:
http://wefinallyfoundyou.blogspot.com
We searched so long to find him/her that while I'm so excited to be sharing the good news and updates, I know there is still a world of people out there that will be saddened and I don't want my happiness to cause someone else sadness.
The only thing I could think of to make the transition from IF blog to pregnancy blog was to split them into two separate blogs. This way, those who aren't in the best of places don't have to follow both, unless they want to.
If you'd like to follow along with the secondary blog.... here is the link:
http://wefinallyfoundyou.blogspot.com
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Saturday, October 26, 2013
October 26th (The actual real date, lol) ----Cat is out of the bag :)
Now you know the real story about the last few months. We're so extremely excited to be here in this moment right now.....12 weeks tomorrow, goodness gracious!!!
There are no words to explain how overwhelmed with happiness we are, to be honest there were many times I never thought I'd get to be announcing a baby to anyone ever.
In case you didn't catch the video announcement on Facebook, here it is!!! Tuesday (the 29th) is our anniversary hence the wedding stuff :)
There are no words to explain how overwhelmed with happiness we are, to be honest there were many times I never thought I'd get to be announcing a baby to anyone ever.
In case you didn't catch the video announcement on Facebook, here it is!!! Tuesday (the 29th) is our anniversary hence the wedding stuff :)
October 20th--- Introducing "Baby Says"!!!
I wanted to capture my bump pictures in a cute and creative way but I'm too tired to really put much effort into anything right now. That is where the idea of "Baby says" came in.
I asked Jim to take my picture today (11 weeks today!!!) and every Sunday we'll take a picture in the same spot. Baby will tell you how he/she is doing and his/her progression each week!!!
Here is Week 11, hope you all like it!!!
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I asked Jim to take my picture today (11 weeks today!!!) and every Sunday we'll take a picture in the same spot. Baby will tell you how he/she is doing and his/her progression each week!!!
Here is Week 11, hope you all like it!!!
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October 7th-- First OB appointment
My first OB appointment was on October 7th (9 weeks and 1 day) and it is now October 19th when I'm updating this blog. Oh geez, I'm slacking!!! Good thing these are still private blogs so its not really as much an issue :)
Anyways, Jim had to work but I wasn't too upset since he had gone to the first three ultrasounds and plus I wasn't so sure I'd really like this office since it was new to me. Thankfully I really like the OB I met on the 7th and the office is great too!! They have a few OBs that work in the office and since any one of them could be on call when you deliver, they ask that you make appointments with all of them at some point in the pregnancy. Makes sense to me!!! My first OB was nice and I'm sure I'll like the rest of them too!!
About the appointment....the nurses weighed me (same weight since pre pregnancy, yay!!) and asked me a TON of questions then gave me a booklet of information that I can read at home. It outlined all the tests that are mandatory and listed those that were optional. I never knew that the NT scan was optional so I'm still hemming and hawing about having it done.....I'm 11 weeks now so I'm thinking I'll just skip it.
The OB came in and talked to me about my IF history then did my scan....ain't she pretty?? I still think its a girl...
Anyways, Jim had to work but I wasn't too upset since he had gone to the first three ultrasounds and plus I wasn't so sure I'd really like this office since it was new to me. Thankfully I really like the OB I met on the 7th and the office is great too!! They have a few OBs that work in the office and since any one of them could be on call when you deliver, they ask that you make appointments with all of them at some point in the pregnancy. Makes sense to me!!! My first OB was nice and I'm sure I'll like the rest of them too!!
About the appointment....the nurses weighed me (same weight since pre pregnancy, yay!!) and asked me a TON of questions then gave me a booklet of information that I can read at home. It outlined all the tests that are mandatory and listed those that were optional. I never knew that the NT scan was optional so I'm still hemming and hawing about having it done.....I'm 11 weeks now so I'm thinking I'll just skip it.
The OB came in and talked to me about my IF history then did my scan....ain't she pretty?? I still think its a girl...
Honestly pregnancy so far hasn't been too hard on me. Its different, I'll give you that, but nothing so far that hasn't been manageable. Week 10 was the roughest so far with all day nausea that wasn't quelched by eating/snacking often. I've also had some issues with insomnia where my thrashing around in the bed caused Jim to vacate the bedroom and take up residence on the couch. Poor guy :(
That is about it....pretty much everyone knows by now including 95% of my coworkers. I'm helping plan the baby shower for a manager's wife. Its nice to be able to get involved in baby related activities again without being depressed or crying. Its a strange feeling but I'm liking it so far.
I'm also into maternity clothes ALMOST exclusively. Mainly just pants. My dress pants are way too tight but most of my shirts are still ok....here is me today about to go for dinner with my coworkers....
September 24th-- Graduation Day!!!
ZOMG, I was released to the OB today I can't freakin' believe it!!!
Today was my last ultrasound at my RE's office. Bittersweet.
Anywho....baby is starting to kinda look like a baby. She has a heartbeat of 136 which they said was great!!! Its still just so unbelievable to see that little beany in there! :)
As for symptoms, still some major plumbing issues. I thought they were gone but they came back with a vengeance. I'm still suffering but I think its maybe not quite as bad as last week. Today I had a few more waves of nausea than usual. The other day I cried at CVS picking out a card for Jim's birthday. Basically, every day is a little different and never the same symptoms it seems. If it keeps up like this I'll be happy. There is a glimmer of pregnancy but not so much to make me awfully sick.
Another fun thing for today, I get to stop my Estrace and PIO!!! So excited to get my bum back to normal and sleep ok again!!
Yahoooooo!!!!
Here is Baby Payne at 7w2d... Love love :)
Today was my last ultrasound at my RE's office. Bittersweet.
Anywho....baby is starting to kinda look like a baby. She has a heartbeat of 136 which they said was great!!! Its still just so unbelievable to see that little beany in there! :)
As for symptoms, still some major plumbing issues. I thought they were gone but they came back with a vengeance. I'm still suffering but I think its maybe not quite as bad as last week. Today I had a few more waves of nausea than usual. The other day I cried at CVS picking out a card for Jim's birthday. Basically, every day is a little different and never the same symptoms it seems. If it keeps up like this I'll be happy. There is a glimmer of pregnancy but not so much to make me awfully sick.
Another fun thing for today, I get to stop my Estrace and PIO!!! So excited to get my bum back to normal and sleep ok again!!
Yahoooooo!!!!
Here is Baby Payne at 7w2d... Love love :)
September 18th-- Beany has a heartbeat!!!
Yesterday we went in for our 2nd ultrasound. I was so nervous I didn't sleep at all the night before so you could imagine how exhausted I was having to get up for the appt. at 5am.
Anywho, we went in and right away the tech was like.....oh here it is!! Then when she said , I see a very strong heartbeat and turned the monitor to me so I could see I got very teary eyed. It was so unbelievable seeing my little creation on the screen flickering away. Sooooo very cool.
Also, I thought I already posted this but this is a video of my MIL unwrapping her picture frame to tell her she's going to be a grandma...
To end this post, here is our little beany bean at 6w2d :) So in love already :)
Anywho, we went in and right away the tech was like.....oh here it is!! Then when she said , I see a very strong heartbeat and turned the monitor to me so I could see I got very teary eyed. It was so unbelievable seeing my little creation on the screen flickering away. Sooooo very cool.
Also, I thought I already posted this but this is a video of my MIL unwrapping her picture frame to tell her she's going to be a grandma...
September 9th--- 5 weeks....Our first Ultrasound!!
Here is our first ultrasound picture at 5weeks!!! At this point it is so early all you see is the gestational sac...which is that black hole in the middle.
We have two more ultrasounds to pass before being released to the OB. I already have my first appointment scheduled for October 7th, I'm so excited!!!
Our upcoming ultrasound this week for our 6 week ultrasound, is still very early but we should at least see a flicker of a heartbeat. I'm so nervous each week!!
September 7th-- Chesney's new shirt
With my last cycle I bought Chesney a shirt that says Big Sister on it. Obviously I never got to use it.... Until now!!!
I'm thinking she hates it because he's giving me a sad look and every time I try to snap a picture of the shirt she rolls on her back, lol
Here's the best I got...
I'm thinking she hates it because he's giving me a sad look and every time I try to snap a picture of the shirt she rolls on her back, lol
Here's the best I got...
September 4th--- Beta #2 was ....
267!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The RE's office said they wanted it around 120 and my little beany surpassed them all!!!
We have our first ultrasound scheduled on Monday, which is 5w1d. I'm a little nervous that is too early but they say I should at least see a gestational sack.
Hope so, I'm so excited!!!
The RE's office said they wanted it around 120 and my little beany surpassed them all!!!
We have our first ultrasound scheduled on Monday, which is 5w1d. I'm a little nervous that is too early but they say I should at least see a gestational sack.
Hope so, I'm so excited!!!
September 2nd---- 10dpFET
Thursday after work, after getting a positive on my digital, Jim and I headed to Kohls to find a little gift for our parents to tell them the news. Since we were seeing my parents this weekend, regardless of the outcome this is the only time I could share this news in person with them. Day of my beta or not I was telling them. We got a little picture frame with a sailboat on it that said "You sailed into our hearts" and then I printed out a picture of the positive digital and put it in the frame. So exciting :)
On Friday morning I got up at the buttcrack of dawn and headed to the RE's office. I knew it was going to be a positive beta of course since my pee sticks had been positive and I got "Pregnant" on the digital the day before. The question was....how positive was the beta going to be. I thought if I'm pulling positives since Tuesday night this beta has to be around 50-60 by Friday morning.
Well....it was indeed positive but a 31.6 which is not exactly quite as high as I thought it'd be. However, a 31.6 IS high enough to turn most all hpt's positive.
Of course I hit the Google....apparently frozen embryos tend to have lower betas for some reason so maybe that is it. All I can think of though all day is that is too low this isn't good.
Especially frightening was the fact that my symptoms faded away that day as well. Jim came to pick me up from work at 4pm (a few hours after my beta) and we headed to visit my parents. Oh good lord what a trip, you probably already read about that in the public posts by now. Anywho, when we finally got to my parents house they gave us the tour and when it was over I said I had a present for them. I went into my bag pulled out the picture frame and handed it to my Mom upside down. I said it was a housewarming present but I didn't have time to wrap it. They both looked at it and smiled and said oh this is nice.....and then their eyes focused on the picture :) My Mom freeeeeeaked out, it was great.
Being gone all weekend and having no pregnancy symptoms made me a little nervous. I was really anxious to get home tonight and pee a few sticks up to make sure little beany was still in there. I did three Wondfos and a digital. My Wondfos scared me but my Facebook girls reassure me that the lines are never very dark. I guess its just a good thing they are darkER but they shouldn't be solid...PHEW! Here is my comparison to Thursday morning's Wondfos....granted I don't know how reliable they are as a comparison since they've been in the trash since THURSDAY!!!! but I pulled the FRERs I took and they all look the same as the day I took them so I'm going with that :)
Holy shmoly folks this may be the real deal.....now for beta #2 tomorrow. Keeping my fingers crossed!!!! Its going to be a long day at work waiting for them to call me!!
On Friday morning I got up at the buttcrack of dawn and headed to the RE's office. I knew it was going to be a positive beta of course since my pee sticks had been positive and I got "Pregnant" on the digital the day before. The question was....how positive was the beta going to be. I thought if I'm pulling positives since Tuesday night this beta has to be around 50-60 by Friday morning.
Well....it was indeed positive but a 31.6 which is not exactly quite as high as I thought it'd be. However, a 31.6 IS high enough to turn most all hpt's positive.
Of course I hit the Google....apparently frozen embryos tend to have lower betas for some reason so maybe that is it. All I can think of though all day is that is too low this isn't good.
Especially frightening was the fact that my symptoms faded away that day as well. Jim came to pick me up from work at 4pm (a few hours after my beta) and we headed to visit my parents. Oh good lord what a trip, you probably already read about that in the public posts by now. Anywho, when we finally got to my parents house they gave us the tour and when it was over I said I had a present for them. I went into my bag pulled out the picture frame and handed it to my Mom upside down. I said it was a housewarming present but I didn't have time to wrap it. They both looked at it and smiled and said oh this is nice.....and then their eyes focused on the picture :) My Mom freeeeeeaked out, it was great.
Being gone all weekend and having no pregnancy symptoms made me a little nervous. I was really anxious to get home tonight and pee a few sticks up to make sure little beany was still in there. I did three Wondfos and a digital. My Wondfos scared me but my Facebook girls reassure me that the lines are never very dark. I guess its just a good thing they are darkER but they shouldn't be solid...PHEW! Here is my comparison to Thursday morning's Wondfos....granted I don't know how reliable they are as a comparison since they've been in the trash since THURSDAY!!!! but I pulled the FRERs I took and they all look the same as the day I took them so I'm going with that :)
August 30th- 7dpFET
So yesterday I had woken up around 330 to pee....peed on three Wondfos and didn't get positives (or so I thought) so I went to bed.
Woke up at 630 had to pee again but noticed the lines on the Wondfos! Took a digi and got this...
Today was my beta so well see!!!
Woke up at 630 had to pee again but noticed the lines on the Wondfos! Took a digi and got this...
Today was my beta so well see!!!
August 28th--- 5dpFET
I couldn't sleep at all last night. I woke up thinking it had to be close to when my alarm would be going off and it was only 1:15am. This went on the whole rest of the night until finally at 5:23am (yes I remember the time) I decided it was just time to get up and pee.
Here is what I got this morning...
You will just have to trust me there is a line there....the squinty lines are hard to photograph but its there!!!
I ran into the bedroom and woke Jim up. "I think it worked....come see this", I said. To which he stumbled out of bed so quickly he hit his head. He looked at the pee stick, twisted it turned it, he didn't see it. Granted, I should mention after I peed I ran downstairs first to download the picture and post it on my FB group for interpretation. In all honesty, the test had been sitting for maybe 15-20minutes before I went to wake Jim up when I got the all clear from the girls. I showed him the picture on my computer....he was kinda giving me this look like "Why did you wake me up for this" so I told him to go back to bed. Not exactly the dreamy way I pictured that moment to be but oh well.
When I got home, we were discussing it a little more. I'm starting to think I'm maybe feeling pregnant. I'm soooooooo thirsty omg.....and I'm getting little twingy cramps now. Not pain and not quite AF but just twingy. Anywho, Jim says "Well take another test now and see what it says" Who am I to turn down a challenge to pee on a stick so I did!!!!
Here is what we got at 5:15pm with not quite so concentrated urine... I couldn't decide which picture shows the line better its tough because I keep getting a glare from the plastic window!!!
By now, maybe you don't think I'm quite so crazy. Neither did Jim....he said "Oh....I see it" LOL
Men, haha.
Here is what I got this morning...
I ran into the bedroom and woke Jim up. "I think it worked....come see this", I said. To which he stumbled out of bed so quickly he hit his head. He looked at the pee stick, twisted it turned it, he didn't see it. Granted, I should mention after I peed I ran downstairs first to download the picture and post it on my FB group for interpretation. In all honesty, the test had been sitting for maybe 15-20minutes before I went to wake Jim up when I got the all clear from the girls. I showed him the picture on my computer....he was kinda giving me this look like "Why did you wake me up for this" so I told him to go back to bed. Not exactly the dreamy way I pictured that moment to be but oh well.
When I got home, we were discussing it a little more. I'm starting to think I'm maybe feeling pregnant. I'm soooooooo thirsty omg.....and I'm getting little twingy cramps now. Not pain and not quite AF but just twingy. Anywho, Jim says "Well take another test now and see what it says" Who am I to turn down a challenge to pee on a stick so I did!!!!
Here is what we got at 5:15pm with not quite so concentrated urine... I couldn't decide which picture shows the line better its tough because I keep getting a glare from the plastic window!!!
Men, haha.
August 27th-- 4dpFET..... hmmmm?
Sorry I didn't blog yesterday but there wasn't all that much to tell.
Today, however? .......
I got this.....
Today, however? .......
I got this.....
Do you see it? Tilt your head, cross your eyes, and hop on one foot....still having trouble???
Now do you see it??? The second line???
OMFG.
So I went to Walgreens after work to pick up my refill of syringes and needles for the PIO. I thought while I was there I should get a few boxes of HPT for when I decide to pee. Of course, on the way home I decided the time to pee was now. When I got home, Jim and I had some dinner and after we were done eating I brought all my stuff upstairs and subtly escaped to the bathroom. I did my thing and set the stick on the counter. I watched 4 min. go by on my phone....1 for good measure. When I picked up the stick ...took it over to the light....took a deep breath and looked.....
I seriously though I was imagining things so I texted a pic to my friend. She saw it. I posted a pic on my FB support group....they saw it. The one girl is the one who made the fancy version of the pic too. Regardless....I'm a little bit, teensy, weensy bit pregnant today. Today is the farthest Ive come. I'm hopeful this is the real deal going forward.
Here's to a darker line in the morning!!!
Symptoms as of today....may be the squinty may be the progesterone:
Nausea --pretty bad. I get super hungry quick and half way through a meal I'm sick to my stomach
Lack of cramping- Totally different from all my other cycles. I cramped the entire way from transfer to my AF/beta.
My legs/knees hurt-- Really weird and hard to explain but my leg joints just ache
Temperature changes-- Hot flashes here and there like I'm on Lupron again. Plus, randomly today I got major chills and icky feeling like I had the flu. It only lasted a few minutes and it was gone.
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
August 25th- 2.5dpFET
Ok so far so good. I've managed to keep myself occupied this weekend pretty well. I'm definitely not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow after my three day weekend but.... That will make time go by quick as well.
I'm still nauseated but I'm sure that is progesterone related since its been around since before transfer. No cramping yet knock on wood and hopefully it stays that way. I thought I was getting the progesterone headache but it was a tease and never really materialized. Hurray!! My bum is feeling better too. However my left side still is pretty painful. We have to go back there tonight regardless though since my right side already got used twice. Boo.... :(
That's all for now!!
I'm still nauseated but I'm sure that is progesterone related since its been around since before transfer. No cramping yet knock on wood and hopefully it stays that way. I thought I was getting the progesterone headache but it was a tease and never really materialized. Hurray!! My bum is feeling better too. However my left side still is pretty painful. We have to go back there tonight regardless though since my right side already got used twice. Boo.... :(
That's all for now!!
Monday, October 14, 2013
August 24-- 1dpFET
Yup, I wanna POAS. Bad. That is silly and I know it but I cant help it.
Anywho, I'm really having trouble with these damn PIO shots. I'm walking around like a gimp and can't put all my weight on my left side or it hurts too much. We did two nights in a row on my right side now because of it. Hopefully by tomorrow its a little better or else my right side is going to match my left!!
We went to my IL's tonight and my BIL kept trying to get Jim to drink and drink and drink. I told Jim he already got a drinking pass on Thursday and I had my friend give me my shot....he needed to be sober tonight to give me the PIO. It was tough and I may have accidentally suggested that Jim has performance issues with alcohol....but that totally came out wrong, LOL
Oh well....so far not feeling anything much. On going nausea that has been around since the first night of PIO. I'm thankful the symptoms started so soon so I'm not wracking my brain trying to figure out if its the PIO or a baby. At any rate, yes I'm nauseated but other than that I'm not feeling anything but a sore ass. I guess that is a good thing right?
Tomorrow my friends are coming over for a BBQ, that should be fun. I'm glad we've had stuff to do this weekend to keep my mind occupied. Now here's hoping the week itself goes as nicely :)
Side note....my boss texted me yesterday to see how it went. I thought that was really nice of her :)
Anywho, I'm really having trouble with these damn PIO shots. I'm walking around like a gimp and can't put all my weight on my left side or it hurts too much. We did two nights in a row on my right side now because of it. Hopefully by tomorrow its a little better or else my right side is going to match my left!!
We went to my IL's tonight and my BIL kept trying to get Jim to drink and drink and drink. I told Jim he already got a drinking pass on Thursday and I had my friend give me my shot....he needed to be sober tonight to give me the PIO. It was tough and I may have accidentally suggested that Jim has performance issues with alcohol....but that totally came out wrong, LOL
Oh well....so far not feeling anything much. On going nausea that has been around since the first night of PIO. I'm thankful the symptoms started so soon so I'm not wracking my brain trying to figure out if its the PIO or a baby. At any rate, yes I'm nauseated but other than that I'm not feeling anything but a sore ass. I guess that is a good thing right?
Tomorrow my friends are coming over for a BBQ, that should be fun. I'm glad we've had stuff to do this weekend to keep my mind occupied. Now here's hoping the week itself goes as nicely :)
Side note....my boss texted me yesterday to see how it went. I thought that was really nice of her :)
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
August 23rd--- FET #1
Today was that highly anticipated day....my FET was finally here!
With sore bum from the PIO, Jim and I headed out to the RE's office. I was nervous because I worried they wouldn't survive, any of them, and we'd have nothing to show for. We took Grumpy with us but he waited in the car.
When we got there they took us back pretty quick which was good because I already had to pee and I had another hour or so left to hold it. Then came the funny part. Since Jim got to go into the transfer room with me, he had to put on the surgical gowns too. His was like a space suit/jumpsuit and he was having trouble putting it on so I was laughing so hard....which didn't help the fact I had to pee!! Jim wouldn't let me take his picture but he insisted on taking mine despite me not wanting it taken.....so we call this "Silence of the Lambs"...
Once the nurses came back into the room, they took my vitals and then left us to wait for the RE to pop in and say hello before going off to the transfer. When Dr. Oz came in he gave us the good news and bad news. Our bad news was that one of the first two they thawed didn't make it so they had to thaw a third. The good news was that those two were thawed perfectly and actually the third one looked the best out of all three. One has an 80% survival rate and the other one had a 100% survival rate. Not too bad I guess!
On we went to the transfer. It was only then that I learned that I have not been putting the Endometrin in far enough. I'm starting to think back on all my AF before beta and wonder if I made that happen. I'm also wondering is it even necessary now for me to be on the PIO?? Well, no sense changing things up now I'm keeping it as is and just shoving that tab up the who ha a little further today.
So without further ado, here are Grumpy (left) and Bashful (right) we are hopeful that one or both will decide to stick around. We tried threatening them.....we told them if at least one didn't we were thawing all their brothers and sisters in storage. We're twisted, I know, LOL but you need to have some kind of humor to get through all this crap.
After the transfer we went and got......life insurance. LMAO. I'm seriously laughing about the irony of today. The insurance agent was like strangely in tune that we were doing IVF , unless Jim mentioned it but I doubt it, and he was rambling all about his grandson was an IVF baby and so and so had an IVF baby. I was like, I'm sorry what? I just want to get a policy, LOL
Anywho, we came home and had some Chinese food. My friend, who recently got pregnant, had a matching fortune with her husband before her beta so we thought we'd see if we could at least get some reassurance through the cookie maybe not matching but something. Nope....told me I have an appreciation for art and music. Thank you oh wise fortune cookie, my life is complete knowing that now since I hadn't known it before, haha.
After Chinese food it was nap time. I'm not putting myself on actual bedrest but who would pass up an opportunity to take a 2 hour nap in the middle of a Friday afternoon right??
So here I am.....almost 7hourspFET and yeah...kinda want to POAS already. That's bad I know, I can't help it. Its a curse.
With sore bum from the PIO, Jim and I headed out to the RE's office. I was nervous because I worried they wouldn't survive, any of them, and we'd have nothing to show for. We took Grumpy with us but he waited in the car.
When we got there they took us back pretty quick which was good because I already had to pee and I had another hour or so left to hold it. Then came the funny part. Since Jim got to go into the transfer room with me, he had to put on the surgical gowns too. His was like a space suit/jumpsuit and he was having trouble putting it on so I was laughing so hard....which didn't help the fact I had to pee!! Jim wouldn't let me take his picture but he insisted on taking mine despite me not wanting it taken.....so we call this "Silence of the Lambs"...
Once the nurses came back into the room, they took my vitals and then left us to wait for the RE to pop in and say hello before going off to the transfer. When Dr. Oz came in he gave us the good news and bad news. Our bad news was that one of the first two they thawed didn't make it so they had to thaw a third. The good news was that those two were thawed perfectly and actually the third one looked the best out of all three. One has an 80% survival rate and the other one had a 100% survival rate. Not too bad I guess!
On we went to the transfer. It was only then that I learned that I have not been putting the Endometrin in far enough. I'm starting to think back on all my AF before beta and wonder if I made that happen. I'm also wondering is it even necessary now for me to be on the PIO?? Well, no sense changing things up now I'm keeping it as is and just shoving that tab up the who ha a little further today.
So without further ado, here are Grumpy (left) and Bashful (right) we are hopeful that one or both will decide to stick around. We tried threatening them.....we told them if at least one didn't we were thawing all their brothers and sisters in storage. We're twisted, I know, LOL but you need to have some kind of humor to get through all this crap.
After the transfer we went and got......life insurance. LMAO. I'm seriously laughing about the irony of today. The insurance agent was like strangely in tune that we were doing IVF , unless Jim mentioned it but I doubt it, and he was rambling all about his grandson was an IVF baby and so and so had an IVF baby. I was like, I'm sorry what? I just want to get a policy, LOL
Anywho, we came home and had some Chinese food. My friend, who recently got pregnant, had a matching fortune with her husband before her beta so we thought we'd see if we could at least get some reassurance through the cookie maybe not matching but something. Nope....told me I have an appreciation for art and music. Thank you oh wise fortune cookie, my life is complete knowing that now since I hadn't known it before, haha.
After Chinese food it was nap time. I'm not putting myself on actual bedrest but who would pass up an opportunity to take a 2 hour nap in the middle of a Friday afternoon right??
So here I am.....almost 7hourspFET and yeah...kinda want to POAS already. That's bad I know, I can't help it. Its a curse.
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
August 19-- First PIO shot
Woke Jim up from his nap before work to give me the shot.... Pretty sure he sleepwalked the shot, LOL
Saturday, September 28, 2013
August 17- Indeed the last monitoring Appt!!
This morning was my final monitoring appt. and even though the weekend u/a tech got a number smaller than what they got Wednesday they're still proceeding with transfer.
Tonight and tomorrow I continue as normal. Monday I downgrade to 2mg of Estrace morning and night plus add a morning and afternoon Endometrin tab and a PIO shot to follow at night.
Transfer is Friday the 23rd, I took the day off work so it'll be a nice long weekend for me. The estrace continues until beta which I'm pleased. I've never been on estrogen after transfer so it makes me happy that ill be on it this time.
Well... Next weekend this time ill have been PUPO a whole day!!
Yikes!!
Tonight and tomorrow I continue as normal. Monday I downgrade to 2mg of Estrace morning and night plus add a morning and afternoon Endometrin tab and a PIO shot to follow at night.
Transfer is Friday the 23rd, I took the day off work so it'll be a nice long weekend for me. The estrace continues until beta which I'm pleased. I've never been on estrogen after transfer so it makes me happy that ill be on it this time.
Well... Next weekend this time ill have been PUPO a whole day!!
Yikes!!
Wednesday, September 25, 2013
August 14-- Apparently NOT the last appt
Was pretty sure today would be my last monitoring appt for this FET but guess not. They need at least a 7mm and I'm at...get this...6.9 WTF
I've got to go back Saturday for another follow up and should be good to go for the Friday transfer.
Grrrrr
I've got to go back Saturday for another follow up and should be good to go for the Friday transfer.
Grrrrr
Sunday, September 22, 2013
August 11th--- The post where I lose it
With the loss of my best friend I'm in a bit of a funny state of mind. I have things to do to continue living my life. However, it just doesn't seem fair that I'd be worried about such trivial things when I'm still here and living today.
I'd like to talk to Jim about it but maybe if we have a daughter we can name her after Jen in some way. Obviously he'd have to agree but well see. We also talked about planting a tree in her memory. I'm not sure that I like that though since I'd eventually in a decade or so like to move, then I'd essentially be leaving her memory behind. So, I'm not quite sure.
At any rate, this is my secret post for today so I should talk about this cycle right?
I just started the 3mg portion of my flow sheet. Wednesday I'm going back in for monitoring, possibly my last monitoring appt. it just hit me that my FET is next week.
I'm not sure if I'm ready to be back in that state of mind of "oh my god please let this have worked" again, but I guess it's too late now right?!
So next week is FET.... Ill be starting PIO in a few days (provided Wednesdays appt is ok) and well be back to the waiting. Seems kinda crazy for a six week process to be determined yes or no in a weeks time. I'm not really sure that I can mentally handle another BFN. I mean....2 failed IUIs, 1cancelled IVF, 4 failed fresh IVFs
...this has to be a positive right? Isn't it my turn yet?
I've waited so patiently through 17.5 months of failed medicated cycles.
Before that, I endured 12 months of diagnostic testing between my Gynecologist, Reproductive Endocrinologist, AND a regular Endocrinologist.
Before that, I spent 20 months peeing on all sorts of sticks hoping for a miracle to avoid needing medical intervention.
After 49.5 months, Isn't it my god damn freaking turn?!?
::Sigh::
End rant.
I'd like to talk to Jim about it but maybe if we have a daughter we can name her after Jen in some way. Obviously he'd have to agree but well see. We also talked about planting a tree in her memory. I'm not sure that I like that though since I'd eventually in a decade or so like to move, then I'd essentially be leaving her memory behind. So, I'm not quite sure.
At any rate, this is my secret post for today so I should talk about this cycle right?
I just started the 3mg portion of my flow sheet. Wednesday I'm going back in for monitoring, possibly my last monitoring appt. it just hit me that my FET is next week.
I'm not sure if I'm ready to be back in that state of mind of "oh my god please let this have worked" again, but I guess it's too late now right?!
So next week is FET.... Ill be starting PIO in a few days (provided Wednesdays appt is ok) and well be back to the waiting. Seems kinda crazy for a six week process to be determined yes or no in a weeks time. I'm not really sure that I can mentally handle another BFN. I mean....2 failed IUIs, 1cancelled IVF, 4 failed fresh IVFs
...this has to be a positive right? Isn't it my turn yet?
I've waited so patiently through 17.5 months of failed medicated cycles.
Before that, I endured 12 months of diagnostic testing between my Gynecologist, Reproductive Endocrinologist, AND a regular Endocrinologist.
Before that, I spent 20 months peeing on all sorts of sticks hoping for a miracle to avoid needing medical intervention.
After 49.5 months, Isn't it my god damn freaking turn?!?
::Sigh::
End rant.
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
August 9-- A light at the end of the tunnel
Today I forgot to take my estrace in the morning. I freaked out a few minutes but luckily the nurses at the RE office are so nice and talked me down....take two when you get home they said. That is just what I did!!
Tomorrow is my last night of 1mg in the morning and 1mg at night. Sunday morning starts 3mg in morning at at night. My monitoring appt is Wednesday and I don't see why I wouldn't be ready.
I mean, after all..... My lining went from a 2mm to a 4.7 in just 4 days and two of which were AF days. I'm pretty confident that Wednesday they'll give me the ok to start progesterone. Five days from then is FET , so I'm thinking Tuesday the 20th.
That actually would work out good since we're going to visit my parents the following weekend I wouldn't have to worry about scheduling my beta. Plus....if it is actually positive I can tell my parents in person.
Anywho...cart before horse what else is new with me.
Tomorrow is my last night of 1mg in the morning and 1mg at night. Sunday morning starts 3mg in morning at at night. My monitoring appt is Wednesday and I don't see why I wouldn't be ready.
I mean, after all..... My lining went from a 2mm to a 4.7 in just 4 days and two of which were AF days. I'm pretty confident that Wednesday they'll give me the ok to start progesterone. Five days from then is FET , so I'm thinking Tuesday the 20th.
That actually would work out good since we're going to visit my parents the following weekend I wouldn't have to worry about scheduling my beta. Plus....if it is actually positive I can tell my parents in person.
Anywho...cart before horse what else is new with me.
Saturday, September 14, 2013
August 6th--- Moving right along....suprisingly!
After having AF for my birthday, I fully expected to have a thinner lining or at least the same level but....it's thicker!!!
My e2 was 116 and my lining was a 4.7....crazy!!!
I'm increasing my Estrace from 1mg once a day to twice a day for the next four days. Then I'll increase to three in the morning and three at night for another four days and back in for possibly my last monitoring appointment next week.
Although an FET is easier, it sure takes a long time to prep!! I hope this is worth it because I totally hate waiting all this length of time.
My e2 was 116 and my lining was a 4.7....crazy!!!
I'm increasing my Estrace from 1mg once a day to twice a day for the next four days. Then I'll increase to three in the morning and three at night for another four days and back in for possibly my last monitoring appointment next week.
Although an FET is easier, it sure takes a long time to prep!! I hope this is worth it because I totally hate waiting all this length of time.
Saturday, September 7, 2013
August 3rd----- AF???? WTF?!?!?!
With a lining of 2mm, I want to know where this AF is coming from?!?!
I literally just convinced my RE that AF wasn't going to come and by my suppression check yesterday he and the nurses agreed. Yet....why did I wake up squishy this morning?
Because IF is a bitch. That's right, I said it.
I'm not even going to tell the RE about this. I don't go back until Tuesday morning anyways so its gotta be gone by then and they won't ever have to know. I'm going to keep taking my Estrace and hope for the best.
FU IF!!!
I literally just convinced my RE that AF wasn't going to come and by my suppression check yesterday he and the nurses agreed. Yet....why did I wake up squishy this morning?
Because IF is a bitch. That's right, I said it.
I'm not even going to tell the RE about this. I don't go back until Tuesday morning anyways so its gotta be gone by then and they won't ever have to know. I'm going to keep taking my Estrace and hope for the best.
FU IF!!!
Friday, September 6, 2013
August 2nd---- All is Quiet on the Southern Front
Went in for my suppression check today and tadahhhhhh, nothing going on!!
Lining is at a 2mm and my e2 was <20 , LOL that is so quiet its laughable. I love it!!
Anywho, I was kinda bummed that I'm staying on the Lupron the whole time. I thought I'd be off it when the Estrace started. They are downgrading my dosage to 5units down from 10units which hopefully will help the hotflashes to subside. I honestly don't even care if they completely subside....as long as they stop coming on while I'm at work.
I was talking to the girls in Accounting today and randomly started hot flashing. The one girl says, "Are you ok?!?!?!!" to which I replied , " Nooooo!!!!!.....but keep talking I'll be freezing in another minute" LOL
Also something new learned today. The RE's nurse said I may be on the Estrace up to 3 weeks. If she had to guess , she'd guess my FET would be on Friday, August 23rd. We are leaving one week later to visit my parents in TN, so I asked if I would come in that morning for beta and then go to work buuuuut (there's always a catch) they do betas on the 8TH DAY after transfer...and I'll be in TN. The nurse said I could always find a Quest in TN and ask them to do it but I said hell to the no. If its negative I don't want to be lounging around my parents house all weekend moping. Sooo....if it falls in that weekend she said we can just have a late beta . NBD. Phew....that's a load off.
Lining is at a 2mm and my e2 was <20 , LOL that is so quiet its laughable. I love it!!
Anywho, I was kinda bummed that I'm staying on the Lupron the whole time. I thought I'd be off it when the Estrace started. They are downgrading my dosage to 5units down from 10units which hopefully will help the hotflashes to subside. I honestly don't even care if they completely subside....as long as they stop coming on while I'm at work.
I was talking to the girls in Accounting today and randomly started hot flashing. The one girl says, "Are you ok?!?!?!!" to which I replied , " Nooooo!!!!!.....but keep talking I'll be freezing in another minute" LOL
Also something new learned today. The RE's nurse said I may be on the Estrace up to 3 weeks. If she had to guess , she'd guess my FET would be on Friday, August 23rd. We are leaving one week later to visit my parents in TN, so I asked if I would come in that morning for beta and then go to work buuuuut (there's always a catch) they do betas on the 8TH DAY after transfer...and I'll be in TN. The nurse said I could always find a Quest in TN and ask them to do it but I said hell to the no. If its negative I don't want to be lounging around my parents house all weekend moping. Sooo....if it falls in that weekend she said we can just have a late beta . NBD. Phew....that's a load off.
Thursday, September 5, 2013
August 1st-- I have had enough!!!
I'm sick of these migraines!!! I know they are being caused by a handful of reasons right now but the dropping estrogen isn't helping. The nurse told me if I didn't get AF by Friday (tomorrow) then I should call their office.....well today, tomorrow...whats the difference? They were a little confused as to why I was calling. I wasn't calling with a cd1 and it wasn't Friday. I explained the situation to the head nurse and just said, "Pleeeeeeeease can I come in tomorrow" and she agreed :)
Tomorrow 9am is my first suppression check, yay!! Hopefully Estrace will start tomorrow night and I can get off these Lupron shots sometime soon too!!! Chug chug chugging along now!!
Tomorrow 9am is my first suppression check, yay!! Hopefully Estrace will start tomorrow night and I can get off these Lupron shots sometime soon too!!! Chug chug chugging along now!!
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
Wednesday, July 31st--- 4th day off BCP
Well....so far to all I'm getting are daily migraines, random hot flashes, and no AF.
Today I wore white pants to work figuring that would entice AF to show her ugly face but NOPE! It feels like its about there but I keep checking and nothing. Booo. At least I only have to survive until Friday before I can just call the RE and get in for my suppression check.
But anyways, my lord these hot flashes....phewwwwwie!!!! I'm shivering in the office at work and then all of a sudden I'm dripping in sweat. I think I know what menopause feels like now and I don't like it all that much. I couldn't help but singing...." Flashhhhhh ahhhhh....savior of the universe" on repeat in my head today, LOL
Today I wore white pants to work figuring that would entice AF to show her ugly face but NOPE! It feels like its about there but I keep checking and nothing. Booo. At least I only have to survive until Friday before I can just call the RE and get in for my suppression check.
But anyways, my lord these hot flashes....phewwwwwie!!!! I'm shivering in the office at work and then all of a sudden I'm dripping in sweat. I think I know what menopause feels like now and I don't like it all that much. I couldn't help but singing...." Flashhhhhh ahhhhh....savior of the universe" on repeat in my head today, LOL
Monday, September 2, 2013
Hello out there!!! Happy Labor Day!!!
I haven't forgotten about you all in public blog land, things have been just kinda crazy!!!
So I'm going to tell you about my crazy dream and then about my trip to see my parents this weekend because both are interesting and not cycle related.
First dream....
I'm at the beach and a family from Ireland comes and sits down next to me. They have a HUGE white dog that looks like a polar bear. They tell the dog to go into the water which it proceeds to run and jump into the water. Next thing I know....there is a hippopatomus in the water and the dog attacks and kills it. Then it starts going crazy and attacking all the dogs in the water too. I'm yelling at the family to get the dog out of the water.....for pete's sake it killed a hippo!!! I woke up yelling from that dream.
Next the trip to visit my parents this weekend:
Jim picks me up at work at 4pm and we head out to park the car at his Grandma's house. She drives us to the airport, and while we were running a bit behind, we made it just in time. Also, the line for security was pretty short so we were able to grab a quick bite to eat and bring it to our gate.
Our flight was scheduled to board at 6:35pm and we sat down at the terminal around 6:15ish. Twenty minutes to go before our flight hurray!!!!....until KABOOOOMM and the sky opened up into a monsoon thunderstorm before our eyes. Of course, all flights were grounded and no flights could come in which included the flight we were waiting on to board. Our flight was circling the airport waiting and hoping for clearance to land but never got it, and started to run out of gas and had to divert to Indianapolis.
Fast forward....the time is now 7:15pm when our flight should have left 10 minutes ago but our plane is in another state and won't even be leaving Indy until 8:15 scheduled to arrive at 8:45 provided the weather held up. This would put our arrival time into Atlanta (where were had a layover and a flight to catch to Nashville) at shortly after midnight their time. Too bad our plane was supposed to leave ATL at 11:10pm , it was the last flight to Nashville, the airport wouldn't put us up in a hotel so we'd have to sleep in the airport until the next flight at 10am.
So.....we drove!!! We went back to Grandma Shirley's got the car and headed out. We thankfully were able to stay with my friend who lives in Louisville which was about the half way point to where my parents are in TN.
We didn't get in until after 2am due to awful traffic in Chicago and a crazy storm in KY, probably the one that grounded our flight, LOL so we got a tour of my friend's new house (its really nice!!!) and went to bed. I felt bad we dashed out in the morning so fast but we had to get to my parents house at some point this weekend!!!
Finally Saturday around 2pm we arrived at my parents house in Fairfield Glade, hurray!!! I really like their house and the community is pretty slick. They took us to a beer tasting even a few hours after we got there and then we went for dinner at the golf course clubhouse restaurant. Sunday we had breakfast on their back porch and watched the deer running around in their wooded backyard lot. It was really serene and peaceful which is right up their alley so I'm sure they're going to love living there! Sunday night my parents had their friends who moved to town and their daughter come over for dinner. It was fun to chit chat but by 7 or 8pm Jim and I both were passed out on the couches!!
This morning we woke up early and took my parents out for a nice breakfast.....Waffle House, LOL then headed back home. We got on the road at 10am and didn't get home unti almost 8pm because the traffic in Indiana was ridiculous!!
Now I'm just doing some laundry getting ready to go back to work tomorrow. Ugh....don't wanna!!!
Hope you all had great Labor Day weekends!!
So I'm going to tell you about my crazy dream and then about my trip to see my parents this weekend because both are interesting and not cycle related.
First dream....
I'm at the beach and a family from Ireland comes and sits down next to me. They have a HUGE white dog that looks like a polar bear. They tell the dog to go into the water which it proceeds to run and jump into the water. Next thing I know....there is a hippopatomus in the water and the dog attacks and kills it. Then it starts going crazy and attacking all the dogs in the water too. I'm yelling at the family to get the dog out of the water.....for pete's sake it killed a hippo!!! I woke up yelling from that dream.
Next the trip to visit my parents this weekend:
Jim picks me up at work at 4pm and we head out to park the car at his Grandma's house. She drives us to the airport, and while we were running a bit behind, we made it just in time. Also, the line for security was pretty short so we were able to grab a quick bite to eat and bring it to our gate.
Our flight was scheduled to board at 6:35pm and we sat down at the terminal around 6:15ish. Twenty minutes to go before our flight hurray!!!!....until KABOOOOMM and the sky opened up into a monsoon thunderstorm before our eyes. Of course, all flights were grounded and no flights could come in which included the flight we were waiting on to board. Our flight was circling the airport waiting and hoping for clearance to land but never got it, and started to run out of gas and had to divert to Indianapolis.
Fast forward....the time is now 7:15pm when our flight should have left 10 minutes ago but our plane is in another state and won't even be leaving Indy until 8:15 scheduled to arrive at 8:45 provided the weather held up. This would put our arrival time into Atlanta (where were had a layover and a flight to catch to Nashville) at shortly after midnight their time. Too bad our plane was supposed to leave ATL at 11:10pm , it was the last flight to Nashville, the airport wouldn't put us up in a hotel so we'd have to sleep in the airport until the next flight at 10am.
So.....we drove!!! We went back to Grandma Shirley's got the car and headed out. We thankfully were able to stay with my friend who lives in Louisville which was about the half way point to where my parents are in TN.
We didn't get in until after 2am due to awful traffic in Chicago and a crazy storm in KY, probably the one that grounded our flight, LOL so we got a tour of my friend's new house (its really nice!!!) and went to bed. I felt bad we dashed out in the morning so fast but we had to get to my parents house at some point this weekend!!!
Finally Saturday around 2pm we arrived at my parents house in Fairfield Glade, hurray!!! I really like their house and the community is pretty slick. They took us to a beer tasting even a few hours after we got there and then we went for dinner at the golf course clubhouse restaurant. Sunday we had breakfast on their back porch and watched the deer running around in their wooded backyard lot. It was really serene and peaceful which is right up their alley so I'm sure they're going to love living there! Sunday night my parents had their friends who moved to town and their daughter come over for dinner. It was fun to chit chat but by 7 or 8pm Jim and I both were passed out on the couches!!
This morning we woke up early and took my parents out for a nice breakfast.....Waffle House, LOL then headed back home. We got on the road at 10am and didn't get home unti almost 8pm because the traffic in Indiana was ridiculous!!
Now I'm just doing some laundry getting ready to go back to work tomorrow. Ugh....don't wanna!!!
Hope you all had great Labor Day weekends!!
Sunday, August 25, 2013
My dream of the Royals...
I have the most effed up dreams I swear!!!
Last night I dreamt we went to visit the Royals in their house.... Not castle... House
When we got there William was ordering Kate around telling her to mop the floors and do the dishes. The baby was named Henry too which was funny. I kept asking Kate why she doesn't have the hired help do the dishes and mop LOL.
Yes indeed the progesterone is making me goofy officially!!
Last night I dreamt we went to visit the Royals in their house.... Not castle... House
When we got there William was ordering Kate around telling her to mop the floors and do the dishes. The baby was named Henry too which was funny. I kept asking Kate why she doesn't have the hired help do the dishes and mop LOL.
Yes indeed the progesterone is making me goofy officially!!
Friday, August 23, 2013
Just Being....
Its tough to just be. I want to pee, oh can't you see?
I'd like to be a bee and sting you on the knee....
Because I'm feeling angry about having this FET.
I'm a poet and didn't know it....ok maybe I knew it just a little LOL
I'd like to be a bee and sting you on the knee....
Because I'm feeling angry about having this FET.
I'm a poet and didn't know it....ok maybe I knew it just a little LOL
Thursday, August 22, 2013
True Blood anyone?!
Jim and I have been watching it so often were out of episodes!!! I'm kinda sad and wish I thought that through ....it would have been nice to watch them while I was laying around this weekend "couch potato'ing" it up!!! But oh well.... So seriously how awesome is the show?
I wish I were fast like a vampire.... Zzzzzshoom and they're there!! Cool!!!
I have a feeling that after my FET, when I walk out of the RE's office to the car ill be feeling like a vampire that just drank some faerie blood, LOL
Any other suggestions for shows? We have HBO Go so we can start from the beginning.
I wish I were fast like a vampire.... Zzzzzshoom and they're there!! Cool!!!
I have a feeling that after my FET, when I walk out of the RE's office to the car ill be feeling like a vampire that just drank some faerie blood, LOL
Any other suggestions for shows? We have HBO Go so we can start from the beginning.
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
August 21- Third night of PIO
Ok I'm over the PIO.
Maybe my brain blocked out the 10days from January because I don't remember it being quite so bad but....
THIS SUCKS!!!
It's only the third night I haven't even have the FET yet and have 11 injections left just to beta!!! Let alone if I'm pregnant holy bajeebus!!!
On a positive note.... Next week this time I could maybe be pregnant already. Weird how life can change so quickly one moment to the next :)
Maybe my brain blocked out the 10days from January because I don't remember it being quite so bad but....
THIS SUCKS!!!
It's only the third night I haven't even have the FET yet and have 11 injections left just to beta!!! Let alone if I'm pregnant holy bajeebus!!!
On a positive note.... Next week this time I could maybe be pregnant already. Weird how life can change so quickly one moment to the next :)
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
The time I met John Stamos...almost...damnit!!
So I was thinking about what to blog since its been a few days when the radio station wished John Stamos a happy birthday.
Suddenly the perfect fun post came to my mind.... The time I met John Stamos....almost.
Five years ago I worked for a high rise condo building in the downtown Chicago area. It's a big deal building....
They had a large open commercial space on the first floor and on occasion they'd use it for something random.
Well....
One day they sent out a memo to all employees that an episode of ER would be filmed across the street and they'd be using the commercial space for a full cast and crew lunch.
Uh wait.... CAST?!?! (This is obviously when John Stamos was on the show....or when it was still on air.... It is off the air now right?! I have no idea LOL) JOHN STAMOS IS COMING TO WHERE I WORK?!?!? <~~~ that is what I said to that email
The day of the filming I spent hours getting ready for work. Hair straightened, smoky eyes, hooker boots, yeah the works!!! I nervously worked through the morning and finally.... LUNCH TIME!! I was so nervous to meet the hottie celebrity that I made one of the maintenance guys walk downstairs with me.
The place was packed and since they allowed us to get something to eat too, me and my maintenance guy friend got in the food line....all the while I scoped the place for John while scooping pasta salad on my plate. I started up a conversation with the girl ahead of me in line and casually asked where John was... But apparently he wasn't in the episode they were filming and wouldn't be there for lunch :(
Oh the humanity!!!!!
On a positive note.... I did meet Angela Bassett.
She was no John Stamos though :(
Boohoo.....
Suddenly the perfect fun post came to my mind.... The time I met John Stamos....almost.
Five years ago I worked for a high rise condo building in the downtown Chicago area. It's a big deal building....
They had a large open commercial space on the first floor and on occasion they'd use it for something random.
Well....
One day they sent out a memo to all employees that an episode of ER would be filmed across the street and they'd be using the commercial space for a full cast and crew lunch.
Uh wait.... CAST?!?! (This is obviously when John Stamos was on the show....or when it was still on air.... It is off the air now right?! I have no idea LOL) JOHN STAMOS IS COMING TO WHERE I WORK?!?!? <~~~ that is what I said to that email
The day of the filming I spent hours getting ready for work. Hair straightened, smoky eyes, hooker boots, yeah the works!!! I nervously worked through the morning and finally.... LUNCH TIME!! I was so nervous to meet the hottie celebrity that I made one of the maintenance guys walk downstairs with me.
The place was packed and since they allowed us to get something to eat too, me and my maintenance guy friend got in the food line....all the while I scoped the place for John while scooping pasta salad on my plate. I started up a conversation with the girl ahead of me in line and casually asked where John was... But apparently he wasn't in the episode they were filming and wouldn't be there for lunch :(
Oh the humanity!!!!!
On a positive note.... I did meet Angela Bassett.
She was no John Stamos though :(
Boohoo.....
Friday, August 16, 2013
My post about Rascal Flatts
Since I'm going to the concert tomorrow night with my SIL, I thought I'd pick one of their songs that seems fitting for my life right now.
I chose Stand.
People keep asking me if I'm going to be ok. What choice do I have, right? Not just with the loss of my friend but with all the other stressors in my life. All my pathetic failed IVF cycles, my parents moving to another state, of course the loss of my friend, and some other personal issues going on over the last few months/weeks.
Its a lot for one person to handle on their shoulders, let alone to deal with it while facing an FET cycle in this state of mind. While I'm not in the best frames of mind this is life, its no use waiting for things to quiet down because they don't, they won't and they never will.
There is always something in your life that will beat you down you have to learn how to balance it on your shoulders and .....stand.
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Moving forward...
I can honestly say that yesterday and today were two of the most difficult days I've had to endure in a long time.
It's so hard to say goodbye....to yesterdaaaaaaay ooohhhh (yes I just broke out the Boyz II Men, LOL)
In all seriousness though it was very difficult. When we were leaving the luncheon her mom told us she knew about our struggles and to keep trying she knows it will happen for us. I hope she's right!!
I went to work for a few hours afterwards but didn't accomplish too much. When I got home, Jim and I went for dinner and a few beers to give Jen a proper "Viking send off" like Jim calls it. Here I am with Jim's hat on....
It's so hard to say goodbye....to yesterdaaaaaaay ooohhhh (yes I just broke out the Boyz II Men, LOL)
In all seriousness though it was very difficult. When we were leaving the luncheon her mom told us she knew about our struggles and to keep trying she knows it will happen for us. I hope she's right!!
I went to work for a few hours afterwards but didn't accomplish too much. When I got home, Jim and I went for dinner and a few beers to give Jen a proper "Viking send off" like Jim calls it. Here I am with Jim's hat on....
Saturday, August 10, 2013
A post for my friend
For those who know me personally, you're probably already aware of this but....my best friend since kindergarten passed away suddenly today. It was quick and unexpected and is very heartbreaking.
I was already struggling with some other demons today when I got the news which just threw me into an even more upset state. Jen and I were like sisters, especially since I'm an only child and always wanted a sister. She was my Maid of Honor and I was hers. She leaves behind a four year old son who will never know how wonderful of a person his mother was....other than from what his family tells him of course.
This leaves me with some serious questions about life and religion. I'm already having difficulty with my own infertility situation. Why doesn't God hear me? Why does he answer other people's prayers but not mine. Why does he answer my teensy prayers and not the biggest one I have? Is there even someone/something up there? Is he laughing at me? Sometimes I feel that to be the case. This morning has only furthered my questions on this crazy place we call Earth. Why did Jen have to die? Why not take a serial killer instead of my friend? Is it necessary to leave her son without a mother?
On my way to meet a friend for coffee, I turned on the radio and "Don't Stop Believing" was playing. I'm not one to believe in signs because signs are just coincidences to me these days but....I have to admit it was pretty good timing. I sort of laughed out loud and then yelled as I was driving "OK, FINE!!!!".
My phone has been ringing off the hook today with people offering condolences. I'm not quite sure its really set in. They are making photo boards and today I've been looking for pictures for the friends board. Unfortunately, most of my pictures of us are ....ummm, inappropriate, LOL beer, unknown guys, yaaaaah the life of 20somethings. All the good grade school pics are with my mom in Tennessee so that won't work. Oh well. ::sigh:: Here are a couple pics of us that I do have.
I'll miss you my dear friend...
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I was already struggling with some other demons today when I got the news which just threw me into an even more upset state. Jen and I were like sisters, especially since I'm an only child and always wanted a sister. She was my Maid of Honor and I was hers. She leaves behind a four year old son who will never know how wonderful of a person his mother was....other than from what his family tells him of course.
This leaves me with some serious questions about life and religion. I'm already having difficulty with my own infertility situation. Why doesn't God hear me? Why does he answer other people's prayers but not mine. Why does he answer my teensy prayers and not the biggest one I have? Is there even someone/something up there? Is he laughing at me? Sometimes I feel that to be the case. This morning has only furthered my questions on this crazy place we call Earth. Why did Jen have to die? Why not take a serial killer instead of my friend? Is it necessary to leave her son without a mother?
On my way to meet a friend for coffee, I turned on the radio and "Don't Stop Believing" was playing. I'm not one to believe in signs because signs are just coincidences to me these days but....I have to admit it was pretty good timing. I sort of laughed out loud and then yelled as I was driving "OK, FINE!!!!".
My phone has been ringing off the hook today with people offering condolences. I'm not quite sure its really set in. They are making photo boards and today I've been looking for pictures for the friends board. Unfortunately, most of my pictures of us are ....ummm, inappropriate, LOL beer, unknown guys, yaaaaah the life of 20somethings. All the good grade school pics are with my mom in Tennessee so that won't work. Oh well. ::sigh:: Here are a couple pics of us that I do have.
I'll miss you my dear friend...
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Friday, August 9, 2013
I'm at a loss for words
How often can I say that??? LOL
I've been staring at my list of possible blog topics and none of them look interesting to me in the least bit.
Soooo.... I'm going to talk about nothing. Not literally nothing because I'm talking now and that's something. No, I mean nothing like in a Seinfeld kind of way of nothing.
Here goes!!!.....
Work? Crazy!!! Totally undermanned and my boss is getting resumes from shlubs on all walks of the earth. She told me to make a list of all my responsibilities and she's going to her boss so she what can be taken off my plate...it's just too much!!!
One guy called today he said the "on hold" music was beautiful LOL Another guy called , I'm pretty sure it was the Count from Sesame Street. He said " I vant to talk to Courtney she is zee one with zee power". I almost peed my pants. I half expected him to say "I have ONe problem hahaha TWO problems hahah THREE problems hahah" LOL
I also put together a proposal for a downtown property this week. I'm named as onsite Assistant which would give me a little more than a 20k bump in pay. I took my time with that proposal for sure :)
I've been trying to win Taylor Swift tickets all week. I spilled coffee on my lap in the car on Tuesday because I was so preoccupied with trying to dial the radio station.
My massage on Tuesday was heavenly. Spa-riffic :)
And on that note I think I'm making ramen noodles for dinner chased with a beer or ten ...TGIF!!!
I've been staring at my list of possible blog topics and none of them look interesting to me in the least bit.
Soooo.... I'm going to talk about nothing. Not literally nothing because I'm talking now and that's something. No, I mean nothing like in a Seinfeld kind of way of nothing.
Here goes!!!.....
Work? Crazy!!! Totally undermanned and my boss is getting resumes from shlubs on all walks of the earth. She told me to make a list of all my responsibilities and she's going to her boss so she what can be taken off my plate...it's just too much!!!
One guy called today he said the "on hold" music was beautiful LOL Another guy called , I'm pretty sure it was the Count from Sesame Street. He said " I vant to talk to Courtney she is zee one with zee power". I almost peed my pants. I half expected him to say "I have ONe problem hahaha TWO problems hahah THREE problems hahah" LOL
I also put together a proposal for a downtown property this week. I'm named as onsite Assistant which would give me a little more than a 20k bump in pay. I took my time with that proposal for sure :)
I've been trying to win Taylor Swift tickets all week. I spilled coffee on my lap in the car on Tuesday because I was so preoccupied with trying to dial the radio station.
My massage on Tuesday was heavenly. Spa-riffic :)
And on that note I think I'm making ramen noodles for dinner chased with a beer or ten ...TGIF!!!
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
I'm getting a massage tonight!!!!
I'm super excited....enough so to make this my blog post for today :)
This will be me soon...
This will be me soon...
Sunday, August 4, 2013
A decade in review....
The following are pictures from my last 10 birthdays up until and including pictures from my birthday today/last night. I've always been a big fan of my birthday and have celebrated pretty seriously :) LOL....enjoy....
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| My 22nd birthday--- Since I had a tame 21st birthday, I really let loose this year. Had a rowdy night on the ISU campus and 6-8 weeks later my Mom called to tell me that my Windsor Pilates had arrived. Hmmm, strange. |
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| My 23rd birthday---My last birthday on the ISU campus. To celebrate, I rented out the party room at "Fat Jacks" and hired my favorite karaoke DJ for me and my friends. |
My 24th birthday---- I bought myself a condo this year. Here I am getting ready to celebrate with Amy.
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| My 25th birthday--- Amy and I went out to Rockit and had mimosas |
My 26th birthday--- My ex took me to Tony and Tina's wedding. It was pretty fun...minus the company of course, lol
My 27th Birthday--- In Vegas (in case you couldn't tell, LOL)
My 28th Birthday--- My first birthday as a couple with Jim. There were many bday pictures but this is my favorite. Howl at the Moon with Amy, Michelle, and Shannon.
Just a fun picture in addition to the Howl at the Moon....also went to a Brad Paisley concert 2 days after my bday and snapped a few pics like this one. And no folks....this is not zoomed :)
My 29th Birthday--- Also a lot of pictures but this is my favorite. Outside Hamada Hibachi Grill where Jim took me to dinner.
My 30th Birthday Party at Charley Horse in Tinley Park (now a different bar)
My 31st Birthday ---trying out a new watering hole called Charlestons. Down the street from where we bought our first home :)
Which brings me to last night/today/tonight.....my 32nd birthday. I even made a song about it....
Night before my birthday I shopped all day. I picked up a free panty from VS, used a $10 off bra coupon and got a nice new bra (I needed one!!!), got a free sample mascara and bronzer thingy at Sephora and also treated myself to uber expensive makeup. I bought a tube of Urban Decay foundation and U.D. eyeliner. It was crazy expensive but it was bday money so I guess its ok. Then I went to Michaels and got some things for my latest crafty vision.....see other blog post!!!....then Target for new shoes cute little flats that Jim said look like witch shoes, LOL. Picked up my free coffee at Starbucks and headed home!!
I met up with two of my friends from my college days at a place called Lalos. They have great Mexican food and even better....great margaritas :) This is the only normal picture I have of the three of us, LOL
Our reservations for dinner weren't until 6:30 but we decided to head out a little early and just walk around at the Riverwalk. Its just as it sounds.....you walk around the river, LOL.
There are tons of shops and restaurants there too and I found a book that Jim bought for me...
All in all, it was a good birthday afterall despite the fact that I have AF (tech. in my private blog but oh well), I'm really just down in the dumps the past 4 weeks. My husband is my rock and he always knows how to cheer me up. He was going to get my horseback riding lessons for my birthday but I'd like for him to go with me. However, with his schedule that might not be possible and I only have a few weeks before FET and I don't want to be on a horse if I'm possibly, maybe, potentially, but in all likelihood probably not, pregnant. Sooooo, I'm going to go to one of those make your own pottery places as his gift to me instead. Happy face here :)
::Sigh:: 32 huh? Shit. haha
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