11 week check in

I had intended to post during the week since it was the anniversary of my 1st of many IVF cycles, but alas I got lazy and forgot :)

Anywho, its a little comical reading my blog posts from a few years ago. I was filled with so much hope and optimism. To have an ounce of that back would be wonderful. From all that I heard from anyone that had even gone through IVF, it was a one and done. I had just assumed that it would have been the same for me as well. Unfortunately, the blog still continues in September 2014 and Baby Payne is still not here. Life is funny that way and I'm having a struggle with getting past the "why me" feelings. I try not to let it creep in but its sneaky like that and before I know it I'm slamming the laptop shut in disgust. Ugly feeling I tell you, I don't like it at all.

Regardless, we're 11 weeks into this pregnancy and still hanging in there. Symptoms are pretty much the same but they're alternating days and/or severity. For instance, last week I ate like a pig but was ready for bed at 7pm. Driving home from work was a challenge as I was ready to fall asleep in the car. Then the last two days I haven't felt quite as tired but now I cant eat anything again and it makes me cry, LOL. I went to a Bachelorette Party last night and thought there was pizza at the first bar but there wasn't. I only had a bowl of cereal before I left and I was soooo hungry. We stopped into a Starbucks for a snack at least, I ordered a pretzel. One bite and I thought I was going to hurl. I ended up sharing my pretzel with the other girls and throwing a small bite left out. I was so upset because I was still so hungry!!!  By 10:45pm I knew I had to call it a night. I was getting tired but my hunger was overwhelming me! I cabbed it back to my car parked in the city and drove home anxious to make the buffalo chicken strips I had in my freezer. Mmmmm, smothered in ranch dressing it was all I could think about the hour drive home. When I got home, I realized they weren't strips and I had bought wings on accident. UGH , I hate wings!!!  But I was soooo hungry I made them anyways. One bite and again thought I was going to hurl. We're now talking about 6 hours of pure hangriness at this point. I texted Jim and, my hero, he stopped at White Castle for me and brought me home some sliders on his way home from a side job :)   Thankfully those were accepted by baby but unfortunately eating sliders at 1:30am isnt' the best thing to do before you go to sleep. I'm still burping up grease even after a handful of TUMS, lol. Silly baby you're always causing trouble :)

Here is my weekly pic.... 11 weeks on the dot! Sorry for the messy hair pic. I took this after I woke up this morning after "partying" with the Bachelorette.... At 11:30am, LOL