December is here....the last month to round out the year that our Jack has been gone.
On December 2nd, 2013, he was still here. I had my last OB appointment and everything was perfect. His heartrate was on track, no protein in my urine, my blood pressure was normal....everything was as it should have been.
We were eagerly anticipating our "babymoon" cruise that we would leave for that weekend. Time away from the chaos of the world to enjoy time together before we became a family of three. My OB wrote me a note on December 2nd, 2013 stating that I was in good health and was able to cruise.
Ironic, isn't it?
On December 2nd of this year, 2014, I cant help but be plagued by the notion that there are only three short weeks left before the anniversary of my little boys entrance to heaven. At the same time, his little brother furiously is kicking me almost worried that I'm going to forget he's in there. I never got to have that feeling with Jack, he wasn't quite as spunky as his little brother is.
Most mom's would be planning a huge party for their little one's first birthday right about now. Instead, I'm planning to celebrate quietly in my house just me, Jim and Chesney. Jack doesn't get parties, he doesn't get presents to open, he doesn't even get to see his brother on Earth.
Therefore, we will celebrate for him.
We will not celebrate his loss, we will celebrate our love for him.
:'-) Hugs mama and love to you and to Jack and to his little brother too.
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