22 weeks and a Thanksgiving Review

Happy belated Thanksgiving everyone!

It seems like I only blogged a few days ago....oh wait, I did! Haha.

Thanksgiving officially marks the last 1st holiday that Jack has missed. Since he was born two days before Christmas, we started the year off with (in my opinion) the biggest holiday of them all.

I've been reading post after post after post on Facebook about what people are thankful for and I'd say 99% are pictures of their child(ren). Sure, we're all thankful for our children but I'm pretty sure its just an extra excuse to post another picture of the kids, LOL. The posts got me thinking though, especially since I can't post a picture of a 6.5 month old Jack (not that I would have if I could....but that is besides the point), what am I thankful for?

Last year I blogged that I was thankful for my IF journey because it made me into the strong willed determined woman that I was last year. It was (and is still) true. Starting on the path of IF treatments I knew nothing about my true character or inner most self. Being faced with such challenges really is an eye opener. Getting pregnant with Jack was my greatest accomplishment and I was so proud of myself for fighting through all the tough times Jim and I faced to get where we were.

This year, I'm NOT thankful for my loss journey. I am, however, thankful that , no matter how fleeting the time was, I still was a mom for the first time. I'm thankful for Jack, even though he is only held in my heart and not in my arms. I'm thankful that because of this experience I will be that much more thankful for Thomas when he gets here. I'm thankful that Jack can keep Jen company, as she is probably missing her own little boy something fierce as well. If nothing else, I'm thankful for my memories and pictures that I DO have of our time with Jack and will try to keep them fresh and alive forever.

In other news, since that dresser arrived last week I can not sit still. Even though things seem to be going well this time around, I cannot shake the idea that he is still coming early and I need to get things ready. Jim put together the rocking chair.... The koala bear was given to me by my grandma when I was 8 years old and I've had it ever since.

 No pictures, but I also cleared a shelf in the bathroom for Thomas' washcloths and baby wash/shampoo....a cabinet for his bottles and equipment in the kitchen...and a drawer in the kitchen for his bibs. Today was the fun project though. I reorganized the basement :) These two storage/shelving items have been holding holiday decorations and stockpile items. I consolidated my stock onto my huge storage shelf and am taking these two things up to Thomas' room for his closet. The smaller one with drawers I think will hold blankets and the shelves I think I'll put books on part of it, and overstock diapers and wipes on the other part. We'll see!

Here we are today at 22 weeks. Just a mere two weeks away from viability date....which doesn't mean too much but is better than where we are today! Oh, and don't mind the boxes they're from the rocking chair.