20 weeks-- Half Baked at max

The morning of 20 weeks with Jack, the doctor came into my hospital room and said I didn't have a choice but to terminate the pregnancy. 24 hours later, Jack was here and gone.

Its such a strange feeling to be at the same point in pregnancy again. 20 weeks to me always will have undertones of sadness and fear but now it comes with joy and relief.

At 20 weeks, I cant help but be concerned about everything. Just last night I was thinking that I hadn't felt Thomas all that much during the day. As I was laying on the couch thinking about the last time I felt him that day, I started feeling some rumbling. I put my hand on my stomach and "BAM" , Thomas gave me his first outside kick. Almost to say, "I'm here Mom, don't worry".

With every new thing that happens that never happened with Jack, it makes me a little more at ease that Thomas is doing ok in there. It also makes me wish it were April already for him to just be here and know that he's safe and alive.

We've been trying to put the nursery together for him. I finally found a dresser I liked...it doesn't match completely but I don't think I'm going to find a perfect match so I gave up. We picked the color and Jim is going to paint this week. I even ordered a few things off Etsy that I can hang up when the room is painted and the dresser arrives. Pretty soon my bump pictures will start looking different in the background....afterall, I've been using his crib as a prop for about 10 weeks, LOL

Anywho, here we are at 20 weeks. Judging by how low that wallop was last night I'm pretty sure he's hanging out breech style still and my belly is looking pretty low today! Its ok for now baby but you best not be getting comfy sitting in that little footling position for long!