30 weeks!! Single digit countdown!!!

This past week was busy busy busy!!!  This is definitely a novel so I've titled everything to make it easier to skip parts that aren't of interest :)

Before going on with the blog I have to AW  (attention whore, LOL...blog/message board speak) the gift from my friend and fellow blogger Krystal and her boys Conner and Ben. I promised a picture and forgot to post during the week. Here is the cute lovey and blanket they gave Thomas. It fits in so great with his nursery theme :) 

Tour of Labor & Delivery

I've decided against taking any sort of childbirth classes for this pregnancy. My thinking is that I've technically been there done that and it was pretty awful. I don't need or want any reminders of what it to come again so I'd like to be "surprised" if you will. However, we did decide to take a tour of the L&D department so we knew where to go, what the rooms look like, get any tips for coming in that day, etc. Well....yeah, it didn't go so well at all. I was nervous to begin with but thought since Jack wasn't even born at this hospital that I could handle the nerves.

We got there and checked in and I was fine all of about 2 seconds into the tour when the tour guide asked for a show of hands for who this was their first baby. She then asked who was due in February, in March, in April.....then we proceeded to move out of the lobby. The walk from the lobby to the entrance of Labor and Delivery is very short but by the time we got to our first talking point outside the L&D doors I was already starting to cry. They have a display of infant footprints on the wall for those that belong to the hospital "Cradle Club" and the tour guide pointed it out and mentioned how small some of the feet were. Cue the hyperventilation. Honestly, I didn't think I was going to make it to finish the tour since I started seeing stars from lack of oxygen.

Thankfully (???)  someone on our tour fainted which gave me a chance to regroup while they tended to her. We were out in the hallway and I just had to keep telling myself "This is a happy time" over and over and eventually I talked myself out of that state of mind.

Its so hard to control something when it takes over you like that. I feel so OUT of control at times because my brain gets all fired up before I can even do something about it. Since I'm already concerned about this reaction the day Thomas is born I'm taking the suggestion of someone in my Share group and bringing comforting things from home to the hospital and Jim has promised to keep me focused on staying present.

Honestly....I'm hopeful even more so now that he comes on his own. Rather than sitting around waiting for the induction day. Then sitting around the hospital waiting for labor. I don't really think I'll have time for panic and hyperventilating if I'm in full on labor out of nowhere.

Starting to pray now for dilation, contractions, and water breakage starting at 38+1. Please.

Regular OB Appointment

Wednesday morning I had my last every 4 week OB appointment. Next week is my last week without a doctor appointment of some kind. The following week starts the crazy time where I have at least one if not two doctor appointments a week. Ahh!

So my appointment was just a regular routine appointment. Blood pressure is good, no protein in urine, T's hr is perfect and despite STILL not having gained a pound since November my belly is sized accordingly. Hey, I'm not complaining but its just weird to think of a pregnant woman not gaining weight.

My only concern was this sudden fatigue and weakness that hits maybe once or twice a day. I can't pinpoint when it will happen but every so often I get exhausted and my legs feel like they will collapse. Apparently this is just a fun third trimester woe.... yay, LOL

I asked again about when I'd be induced and the OB said anytime that 39th week that I could pick the day essentially. Its strange to think about picking the day that your child is born, right? At first I thought well just go with 39+1, March 30th ...but if it takes longer than a day then Thomas would be born on the anniversary of a very close family friend to my IL's passing away. So then we thought April 1st....but then if it happens the same day then Thomas will be born on April Fools Day. I already feel like a cruel joke has been played on us losing Jack then his brother is born on AFD? Too weird for me....although it would be "funny" to post on FB something like "I had a baby today... April Fools or Not? I'll never tell" LOL


Share Walk Kick Off Meeting

Wednesday evening was the first meeting for the Share Walk in October. I'm so happy to be able to participate even though its still so far away!  I've volunteered to be a "Day Of Coordinator". I'm so excited! I also ordered a box of Girl Scout cookies from one of the other moms and its perfect because I probably won't get them until March and then I can actually eat them. Mmmmmm Samoas :)



Baptism Preparedness Class

Thursday night we had our class for Thomas' baptism. After losing Jack, God and I have a love hate relationship so when we were introducing ourselves to the class and had to mention a time when God was present in our lives, I had no idea what to say when it came to my turn. Pretty much every person there said "When our child was born". Well... I can't exactly say that I felt God present at all the day Jack was born. In fact that was probably the moment I felt like he was farthest away from us that he could possibly be. I started panicking trying to think of something to say when it came to my turn and also wondering if/how I should mention Jack in my intro to the group. Thankfully Jim went before I did and told the group that Thomas was our second which made my intro a lot easier and a lot of stress was lifted not having to worry about how to approach that with a room full of strangers. So when it came to my turn I said that God and I have struggled this last year in our relationship but I feel his presence with every sign that I get from my son in heaven. We told the class even about the cloud formation we saw last year that was shaped like a baby and how looking at the picture now, the baby in the cloud looks like Thomas. Our instructor said that our story gave her chills....me too lady, lol :)

Anywho....we had a brief instruction on how the day of the event goes and so now I can call tomorrow and officially schedule his baptism. It will be the last Sunday in June now....which is like the 3rd time we've changed our mind on the date. There are a lot of other family events going on between May and July plus Jim's vacation request for July (when we wanted to have it originally) was turned down so June 28th it is (provided its still available!).

Dietician Appointment
Pretty much the same things as usual. I'm not eating proper number of carbs, not enough (or really any) fruits and veggies, need more calcium, etc, etc, etc..... grocery shopping these days is really hard to do. Not only am I too tired to push a cart around a store, stand there while I read every label, and then load up the bags in the car...I also have to time it for when Jim is home and awake so he can bring them into the house. Plus then, I'm already exhausted from the shopping aspect that I have no energy to put everything away.

I don't know why I didn't think of it before, but my dietician said "Sounds like you should just order Peapod" so that's what I did. Oh it was so exciting to spend my normal two hours reading labels from my couch and having them just arrive Saturday morning and dropped off in my kitchen. :::Sigh:::: Yes Peapod you have saved me once again :)

Weekly Thoughts

My mother in law and grandmother in law bought us our stroller/car seat!!! I began to assemble it, but unfortunately one of the parts were missing so we have to wait on Customer Service at Graco to send us a new one. Oh well....we have some time and regardless even if we didn't we can still use the carseat and base without the stroller if we absolutely had to.


So yeah, wow 30 weeks. As mentioned previously, I'm hopeful for him to come during 38 weeks on his own. I think we'll have a few little talks and tell him he needs to listen to his momma. So if he does listen, then there's only 8 weeks left. If not, only 9 weeks left. Either way, we're in single digits folks!!

His nursery is officially completed....minus the stuff we get from showers....and him, LOL. We put the mattress in the crib, Jim hung the frames on the wall, and we're all set. Now that everything that can be organized is organized I'm just loafing around. Haha.

Thomas and I were at a 1st birthday party yesterday for a coworker/my former boss.....he was quiet the whole day but when her husband said it was time for cake he started kicking and moving around. Ok little boy, we know where your priorities are now. Don't think when you pop out you're getting cake anytime soon, LOL

I love looking at his smoosh face on the ultrasound pictures but I'm getting really antsy now. I just want to see him in person....not today though of course (Ahhh!)   but I hope time moves fast and he's here soon safe and sound in his "Wild" nursery :)

Here's 30 weeks! Please don't mind my messy appearance I'm technically still wearing the same shirt I had on yesterday I'm having a sleep all weekend weekend   :/