We were getting the bathrooms ready for them since they needed to use the showers in the house. I decided to put in my Endometrin before they got in there and to my surprise I was spotting. Uggg....well as I came out of the bathroom, my BIL said ,"You guys have so much room here when you have kids you'll have plenty of space here!!". All I could think of was the when? you mean IF! we have kids...and then I started crying. Jim and I locked ourselves in the bedroom and we both had an ugly cry over our loss of what might have been.
Well...I went to Target with my FSIL and bought a few impulse items to make myself feel better and by the time I got home the spotting stopped.
Then I started thinking maybe it was implantation bleeding so I was excited again for my beta, thinking I was still in the game!! However, this morning when I woke up to go downtown at 5am, the spotting was back. I still drove downtown and saw my favorite lab tech who said he'd see me in a couple days. Oh how I wished he was right but nope he was wrong.
The IVF nurse called to confirm the beta was negative. We're going to California Oct 10-17th for Jim's cousin's wedding in Sacramento so we're unable to start a new cycle right away.
IVF #2 should be a go for end of October/early November barring any unforseen circumstances.
This effing blows.
I'm so sorry. ((hugs))
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