Sunday, September 2, 2012

Is apathy a side effect of IF? Cuz I've got it...big time...

bla·sé (blä-z) adj. 1. Uninterested because of frequent exposure or indulgence. 2. Unconcerned; nonchalant: had a blasé attitude about housecleaning.
This is me to a tee. I'm very uninterested in this cycle for some reason. At first I was getting anxious and jealous of all the other ladies in process of their IVF cycles and looking forward to getting back at it myself. Now? Pfffft...whatevs.
Last night I took my Menopur first, then Lupron , then Follistim. Menopur was ok...bled a little but ok. I waited until the bleeding stopped then proceeded to pinch and grab for the Lupron. Only problem was, after I injected the needle, the plunger wouldn't go in! I gave it a little bit of a firm press and all 10units shot into me...YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUCH!!!!!!! So it was no surprise to see the waterfall of blood coming out after the needle was removed. It was pretty gross...I had to wash my hands before the Follistim. After all that, I somehow still found the strength and courage to take one.more.shot. The last one wasn't as bad but now that I'm on 300iu, I felt like I was holding that pen forever. It kept going, "click click click click click click click"...OMG am I done yet.."click click click click", LOL
So this morning I decided to sleep in a bit. With clinicals last week and the RE appt. Saturday, I figured I deserved to sleep in. Well...I probably should have set the alarm because I woke up at 9:15am , a lot later than intended. My shots are on a 9 & 9 so I was 15min late...eek!! I raced downstairs, grabbed the Lupron and a pre-filled Lovenox. Lupron first since that was time sensitive...this time it went ok. No flood of blood, lol. Lovenox burned like a mofo...more than usual but what are ya gonna do.
This is going to be a long 1-2weeks I have a feeling. Coupled with the fact that we're closing on our new house and supposed to be moving the same week I'm hoping to do ER/ET so I'd like to fast forward a month please and thank you. :)
Also...here is something that I have to look forward to. Any....day....now...

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