Getting healthy

Since we lost Jack, I've made it a promise to myself that I would get as healthy as possible before getting pregnant again. Obviously we don't have answers for what caused the preeclampsia so of course I'm trying to cross off any reasons that may give it cause to come back a second time around. Having good nutrition is one thing I have complete control over...my weight also goes hand in hand with this although as we all know, its not quite as easy to control weight.

At any rate, my pre-pregnancy weight came back immediately after Jack was gone. It was really confusing and upsetting how my body can betray me again like that. I knew right then that I never wanted to see that weight again. It was the best I could do before getting pregnant with Jack but it was far heavier than I wanted to be, plus those three numbers put together now just remind me of him.

In February, I started actually putting effort into healthy eating and weight loss  and I'm proud to say that I've dropped 7.5 lbs since then which puts me only 1 lb. away from both my wedding weight and within a healthy BMI range (albeit the highest possible number in the range, but still!) .

We still have some time before trying another FET so I'm very excited about this challenge to drop some more weight. It was the BEST feeling the other night when I tried on my skinny jeans that have been packed away for years ....and they fit!!!  And, on top of that, its always nice to come out of winter and actually still fit into last Summer's clothes (and have them be a little big!!!).

If this is the only thing I can do for myself to know I'm doing all I can for a healthy baby , then bring it on!!!  Should we have another loss then I at least wont be down on myself for not doing this much at least to help.