Let me tell you about my newest reason for needing this vacation...
Since I've been curious about what's going on in my body since my debacle with the hysteroscopy and my betas last month, I had decided to pee on the OPK.... as previously posted. So, you would also know that I got a really close to positive on Friday the 28th. Just for fun I plugged some things into FF and it said that most likely O occurred and it occurred on the 29th/Saturday.
Also just for fun, since I have a bagillion Wondfos now, I decided to start peeing on the pregnancy tests. I figured if nothing else it would reassure me that my hcg was low enough to not be detected. BFN for a few mornings until.... a shady little effer appeared yesterday morning. I'm just assuming I'm crazy so I texted it to a friend who said either she was crazy with me or there was a line. Hmmm... so all day long I struggled to actually work until I was able to leave and run to CVS for a FRER. Finally the moment arrived...
Uh, yeah... thats a positive FRER we got right there...
This wasn't even FMU or concentrated but BAMMM, BFP in my face. If you're a seasoned pee stick photographer like I am you'll know that this line was a lot darker in person but they just don't photograph well.
Ok, ok, I started thinking.... really? seriously? Is this for real?? Surprisingly I slept well last night even though I wanted to POAS again today. When I woke up, I just couldn't do it, I couldn't pee on another stick again this is insane.
While I mulled it over most of the day, I finally decided to give my RE's office a call and talk to a nurse. When I explained the situation to the nurse that picked up, I asked her first of all can I even ovulate with hcg in my system. She said and I quote, "Anything is possible". Hmmm, ok. Then I asked her if this could be a retained tissue problem that's flared up again (since I had one of these "flare ups" 28 days ago, LOL) she very quickly said, "Oh, no...no that wouldn't happen". Ok then.... how about the FRER picking up my old hcg? She didn't think that was likely either since 8 days prior to my positive the hcg was only 9.64 which to start isn't high enough for it to be detected plus it should have gone done a bit more in the last week. Soooo.... is this a pregnancy? This question was the only one not definitely answered, I got a "We have to wait and see what your next beta is" as my response.
I just think that its reaaaaaaaally strange that last month my hcg was positive...doubled....then slowly started going down. It didn't jump up and down it just was going down. Then, I get a pretty close positive OPK (despite the lowering hcg levels, the OPK got darker) and then 12 days later I get a positive FRER. Not only did I have the positive FRER but I also feel like crap and like I'm getting AF.... see my last post.
After work, against my better judgment I took another FRER with the same parameters as last night.... after work not concentrated pee and its now fading away...
Is this chemical #1? Is this chemical #2? Is this one of the situations that my RE's nurse seems to exist other than pregnancy but wont tell me about, LOL?
So this is why I'm more than happy we're leaving in the morning. It will be hard to think about betas and FRERs when I'm in 90 degree weather on the strip!!!
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