Battling IF is all about small victories and I think that today may be considered one of them.
Jim and I had a bunch of family and friends over today for a Housewarming/Bears vs. Packers game (YAY GBP!!!) and so we wound up having a pretty decent amount of people over. Including two of my friends from High School who have two small children around age 5. A friend of Jim's came by with her 9 month old baby and last but not least, Jim's friend from High School and his pregnant wife were here. With all the children and future children around me I behaved like a normal human being and I'm super excited about it. I was polite and had a smile on my face and <gasp> held the baby!!
My cousin was at the party too and on one tour of the house, we came to my "junk room" which was going to be a nursery, then a yoga room, then now I just don't feel like doing anything. She says "Oh a nursery!!" and then tells the other lady about how I ruined family tradition about having a baby every 10 years. My birthday is 1981...my one 2nd cousin is 1991...and my other 2nd cousin is 2001....so I was the likely candidate for a 2011 baby but FAILED!!! No, she really didn't say that that way, LOL but thats kinda how it felt to me. Oh well, I just laughed and brushed it off and nervously changed the subject. I figured if I didn't break down in tears at that moment then I'd be ok the rest of the day....and I was :)
Tomorrow is the biopsy and counselor appt. and I can't wait to tell her about how I was a nice person today!! Yay!!
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