Day 2 of the rest of my IF life...

Yesterday was a rough day as you can imagine. I wasn't all that thrilled after I talked to my RE and she wanted to run the same protocol on me again. The 3rd cycle was done with the same RE because of the fact that the protocol was so much more aggressive and different and I thought we had a fighting chance. If we're doing the same thing over and expecting different results, well that my friends is the definition of INSANITY!!!  and insane is something I'm trying to not define myself as!! The only difference was to increase my DHEA from 50mg to 75mg. She told me to start taking it now and by taking it for an extended period of time, that should give me the best chance of improving my egg quality. She still believes this is merely a quality issue. I asked about PGS but she said that was not something they could do for me.

So....yesterday, BFN day number uno, I made appointments for consultations with 4 yes 4!!!!  new REs!!  Two are out of Naperville, one of which has been referred to me by two different woman both with twins from his office. One is a referral by a member of my Resolve group in Orland Park who has a DE program. I like that option in case we need it, I know its offered. The last one is a phone consultation with Dr. Sher himself!!! from SIRM in St. Louis. I read his blog and there is a case study of a woman my age with a similar problem so I'm hopeful he has some suggestions.

Basically my thoughts are, I'm going to spend the next month collecting information and opinions. If they mesh with my current RE, then I might just go for a 4th cycle at Northwestern since I'm familiar with the staff and procedures. If they are all coming up with something off the wall different, I'm going to have to just decide what to do at that point. I'm also interested in getting an appointment with Dr. Kwak Kim in Vernon Hills. She is a Reproductive Immunologist. I'm concerned that the repeated implantation failure (RIF) is being caused by an immune system problem and while maybe quality has something to do with it, might be a bigger problem.

Originally we thought we'd wait to cycle until next January but we agreed last night to give it 6 months and reevalutate. Depending on where I am job wise (I'm going to need a good paying job if we're going DE or adoption route.....school may be on hold) and what RE and RI opinions we've gotten, we may cycle this summer. Otherwise, we have a cruise in December so if we're not satisfied where we're at in July then we're going to just wait it out until next year. At least January 2013 is nearly over so that would only be 11 more months until our next go around :)   I'm just honestly concerned about upcoming baby showers and 1st birthday parties. I may be sick ::cough cough:: a lot in 2013....see , its already starting now, uh oh!!!

P.S. I'm psyched to be drinking coffee again. If I can't be pregnant at least I can be caffeinated LOL