Yup, IVF#3 is officially a negative. I asked the IVF coordinator what my hcg was and she said it was less than 1. So this royally sucks but I guess I pretty much was expecting it after the BFNs on the HPTs.
Last night Jim and I talked about our next steps. I'm going to make a few, yes a few, second opinion appointments with other REs. I'm also going to get my records and make an appt. with Dr. Kwak Kim, a Reproductive Immunologist. I'd like to find some answers as to why I'm having repeated implantation failure. If I'm unable to get answers I'm not very willing to cycle again with anyone. If this is still an egg quality issue, then we may consider DE but not until next year this time. If no one can give me answers either way, we're going to adopt. I'm also compiling adoption agency information and scheduling myself for information sessions. If we do go that route, we'll at least have all the information already.
I feel like I'm floundering and its only been an hour since the news. I dont know what route we're taking or when we're taking it. All I do know is that next Christmas, either way, we're going to be childless again.
I am so sorry for this news, Kate. Sending you lots of squishy hugs. I really hope you're able to get some answers and find a path that brings you success and peace.
ReplyDeleteI just audibly swore when I read this post. I'm sending you hugs and thoughts. I am so fucking sorry.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry that your test was negative. It sounds like you are already in planning mode. That is how I always deal with disappoitment too, gearing up for the next step and collecting more information. I hope you can find an RE who can give you some answers. A rep immunologist sounds like an interesting idea too. Sending you hugs!
ReplyDeleteI'm so upset to hear this Kate. I'm so sorry. Sending you big squishy hugs.
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