This song is how I wish I could be and what I hope to return to when pregnant again. When I was pregnant with Jack I felt like I WAS bulletproof. Going through Clomid, IUIs, multiple IVF cycle and a FET to finally get that second pink line.... no way was anything happening to me or that baby. Guess I forgot to put on the bulletproof vest because the bullets of "anything can happen" shot right through me to my core. I'm changed , I'm different, I'm unbelievably cynical about babies and the world in general. You might say I have this strange awareness about death and while it may be morbid, at least my eyes have been opened to the world where nothing can be taken for granted.
Ok , ok.... with that attitude it will be a long pregnancy so I'm trying to not feel "bulletproof" because I understand that cannot be completely. However, I will try to accept the fact that I'm not bulletproof and cannot control what lies ahead.
Try being the key word !!
I'm going to do my best to try to keep you sane during the next pregnancy. Although, it'll be like the blind leading the blind. Also, I need to see that video. Like, it should be on your next blog post.
ReplyDeleteLOL you asked for it, I'll see if I can save to post it, haha.
ReplyDeleteWe'll have to be sure to time our moments of freaking out so they don't fall at the same time....that would be scary , haha!!!