The Lupron is coming, the Lupron is coming!!

Oh my what a day, what . a. day!!!

I had my post operative appointment today with the NP at the RE's office. Apparently the polypoid that was removed was NOT a placental polyp like I so self diagnosed myself with. It was "fragements of glandular and stromal tissue" which basically just means normal uterine lining just clumped. Hmmm, but since that was clear I'm given the green light to start Lupron!

They don't normally keep compounds laying around so I had to order the meds and wait for them to arrive rather than "borrowing" and paying it back later. So, I talked to Cigna pharmacy this evening and we're all set for a delivery of Lupron and PIO tomorrow sometime. OMG. I'm back on Lupron tomorrow!!! Here's the plan...

Lupron and BCP (already been on them)  overlap for 10 days ... until June 23rd.

Stop the BCP and wait for a little AF/Withdrawal bleed (usually around 3 days they say), although last year the withdrawl seemed to not be happening so I skipped that step and it surprised me on my birthday instead. Not this year AF, think again bish!!

Provided its 3 days later...go in for baseline and labs and start the Estrace around the 26th

Gradually increase the mg of the Estrace until lining is ready and FET should be somewhere in the week of the 14th so provided this FET works , I should hopefully hear a baby's heart beating on or pretty close to my birthday this year. ::::gasp::::


Ok so this is all seemingly going smoothly and that is great however, its really sinking in now that this FET is happening. When I left the RE's office after my post-op "Brave" by Sara Bareilles was on the radio. That song always makes me think of my friend Jen passing away last year right before I got pregnant with Jack. It reminds me of that time frame and I kept always thinking to myself last year that I had to be brave myself to get through her wake and funeral. To hear that song randomly just sent me back into sob-land since this summer is similar to last summer in so many ways that its really scaring me. I know this sounds funny but.... Rascal Flatts is in town this weekend and I saw them last year before my FET, an IRL bump friend is having an FET and I'm sure it will work for her and last year another IRL bump friend got pregnant the month before me too, the transfer is only a month earlier than last year. Its just feeling very similar and I'm hoping and praying no matter how similar this all feels to me that its not a sign that my next baby wont come home too.

Ok enough crazy talking, I need to enjoy my last night free from Lupron before the nightly shots and cray cray Kate comes back.....yes that means I'm going to have some ice cream :)