Tomorrow morning bright and early I'm starting my day off with a uterus full of saline. Oh joy.
I'm not freaking out, which is a good thing, but I'm really anxious and nervous. I'm nervous about stepping foot back in that building when I should be 30 weeks pregnant instead. I'm nervous about having Dr. Oz find something wrong and send me for another D&C. I'm nervous there wont be anything wrong at all and I'll be officially FET prepping by the weekend. I'm nervous that if we start FET prepping this week, I'm going to be staring down the pee stick next month this time. I'm nervous it wont have a second line this time. I'm nervous that it WILL have a second line and I'll live in fear of losing another child.
I guess either way I look at it, I'm going to be a little on edge. I already warned my one coworker that I may be a bit of a nutcase with my second pregnancy. They probably will be the first to know about it since I see them everyday and I don't think I can hide nut case-ery when I'm in person, lol
I miss my Jack so much. I wish he were here instead....but I must go on.
big hugs Kate.
ReplyDeleteI feel like you are in my head right now. I know how you feel. FET buddies, indeed.
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