Good god I'm getting nervous and freaked out.
We are in the final countdown and driving home tonight from work I started crying. Usually by this point I'm crying because "I knew" it didn't work. Tonight my tears came from the place of "What if it didn't work". I just can't think of going back to that deep dark place of despair again.....especially since work is so god damn crazy with multiple people out for vacations and/or sick that I need to keep it together. If I want to keep a steady paycheck, I need to keep my sanity in tact. It just may not be possible if this is BFN.
I also briefly reminded myself that I have 7 amazing little frosties in storage. If this didn't work we have a backup plan. Although that made me sad too....I'm emotionally attached to RK and KC and I want these two blasts. I want them both now.
Anywho....tomorrow we're having a party at our house so I should be able to keep my mind off things at least for tomorrow. Hopefully :)
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